“No. She actually handled it really well, better than me.”
“Looks like you got lucky with this one, don’t you dare let this female go.”
“Who said I would? Can’t you see I’m trying?”
“Trying? Man, you growled at your mate just because she said no. Canyou act like a human when you’re around people? Let out your animal side when it’s just the two of you in bed.”
“Fuck you!”
“Fuck her, not me! But you need to watch your temper. I won’t be surprised if you don’t get laid because of your temper.”
“Yeah, nice advice from someone who hasn’t gotten laid in a long time.”
“Fuck you!”
“Find someone to fuck! And stop minding my business.”
“You’re my business. I was born and raised to serve you. And knock some sense on you.”
“Just do what I want you to do. Make sure people know Nadia is my fated mate and my Luna, and not Andrea.”
“What do you want me to do, sing in the middle of the crowd to get their attention and tell them Nadia is their Luna? You need to do that yourself. If you want to be visible in the pack, take her with you. You did that with Andrea, that’s why everybody found out about her.”
I leaned my back against my chair, placing my hands at the nape of my neck as I stared at the ceiling above my head. “I want that, but I need to ask Nadia. I don’t want to force her if she doesn’t want to go around with me. So we need to have another option in case she doesn’t want to.”
“Can you see the difference between how you’re treating Nadia and Andrea? You’re fucking scared of losing Nadia, am I right? It seems like if she asks you to cut your throat, you’ll do it.”
“In the blink of an eye.”
“Do you love her?”
“I think I do.”
“More than Andrea?”
I let out a deep sigh and closed my eyes before answering. “I am actually doubting now if I really did love Andrea or just the idea of having her. I forced her into everything I wanted, but I don’t have the heart to do it to Nadia. And I’m fucking scared that with just one wrong move, she’s going to run away.”
“Calm down, it’s only the second day today. And I don’t think she’s running away. That female needs shelter and protection. Give her that.”
“What about if she found out about Andrea, and what I did to her?”
My Beta couldn’t answer. I really fucked up.
I told him what I knew about Nadia this morning and how her and Andrea’s fates were similar, being pushed into marriage with someone they didn’t even like at all.
“I don’t know. I’m talking here as a friend, but what happened with Andrea, confining her here and emotionally torturing her with all those Luna ceremony preparations and the marking, was an evil move.”
“Why didn’t you fucking help me that time?” I snarled at him.
“Fuck you, man! How many times did you threaten to fire Sebastian and I every time we tried to reason out and go against you? If we weren’t thinking about Andrea being left alone here with you, we’d have fucked off already!”
“Shit! Shit!” I punched the side of my desk in front of me in anger, denting it in the process. I was so fucking pissed off with myself and all the shit I’ve done. “I really fucked up this time!”
I saw blood trickling down from my knuckles, but I didn’t care. I rested my elbows on my desk and covered my face with my hands. “How the fuck could I come out clean from this?”
“You need to tell her everything.”
“No! And you too, not a word about Andrea. Whenever she asks, direct her to me.” I told him, and I knew he would try to defy that, so I rolled off an Alpha command.
