“If I end up being in a little pain, it is fine. I won’t hold a grudge against you,” I rush out.
Daddy shakes his head. “No, you are going to stay awake. We will do this multiple times throughout the year for the restof your life. You need to get used to it. It might feel a little embarrassing at first, but you will get used to it over time.”
“I don’t think I’ll ever get used to something going up my bottom,” I mutter. “It’s embarrassing.”
“We can’t knock you out every single time we take your temperature. It won’t be good for your health. What if we have to take your temperature several days in a row?” Yamal asks. “It would be dangerous to sedate every single time we had to do that. You are going to have to get used to it.”
I open my mouth, but Daddy shakes his head. “That is the end of the discussion.”
“Wait!” I yell. “I have to pee!”
A smile forms on Yamal’s face. “Perfect. I need a urine sample from you. Roll her onto her back and spread her legs. I’ll put a catheter in so it can drain into the bag. I’ll check it when I get to the office.”
I stare at Yamal, horrified. I thought I was getting out of him sticking something up my bottom, but now he is going to stick something inside of methere.
“Thought you could use that as an excuse?” Yamal asks.
“I can pee in the cup. You can tell me where the bathroom is, and I can go there.” I nod decidedly.
“We don’t have bathrooms for you, so you can’t do that. This is the safest and cleanest way for me to get a sample,” Yamal explains. “If you keep still, you won’t get hurt, and it will be a quick process. If you try and fight it at every turn, it will take longer.”
My mouth falls open at his logical response.
“Why don’t you go get her a bottle so you can feed her while I get a sample and take her temperature?” Yamal suggests.
Bottle? Why is he talking about a bottle?
“I would rather put it in a bowl for her so she can drink out of it,” Daddy says.
Bowl? My eyes go wide. He can’t be serious.
“Next time. Right now, I need her to be as relaxed as possible. I think suckling on something will help her calm down,” Yamal explains. “I’ll hold her while you get it.”
Yamal takes Daddy’s place, comforting me.
“I don’t need a bottle,” I tell Yamal.
“Yes, you do. It will help you calm down.” He gives me a pointed look.
I push my bottom lip out and look away from him. They think they know best, but they don’t. They don’t know anything about me and what I actually need.
“Just you wait.” Yamal chuckles. “You’ll see that it will help. If you want, your Daddy can give you pleasure after you finish your bottle, so it keeps your mind off what we’re doing.”
“I don’t think so,” I mumble. “Wait!”
Did he just say for me to get pleasure to keep my mind off things?
“Would it be the first time you ever received pleasure from others?” Yamal asks.
“I—”
“I think that’s a yes from how shy you are. That’s okay, your Daddy will take good care of you every single time,” he gently says. “But you will have to communicate with him properly so he knows what you like and don’t like. It’s important.”
My whole face goes red, and I look away from him. “I don’t need anything from him.”
But I’m curious. I’ve never given myself pleasure before. I felt awkward, trying to touch myself when there were other girls in the room. What would they have thought if they caught me?
“You don’t have to be embarrassed about it. It’s perfectly natural to want it,” Yamal explains. “It’s healthy.”
“I do?—”
“I’ve got the bottle. I’ll take over from here, and you can get the sample first,” Daddy announces as he walks into the room. “Why is her face bright red? Is she okay?”
“We were just talking about pleasure, specifically you giving her pleasure while I take her temperature,” Yamal says.
“No!” I shout. “I don’t want it.”
If I am going to get pleasure, I don’t want it to be in front of anyone else. It’s already embarrassing enough that I have to get my temperature taken in my bottom. How am I going to face Yamal again if I get pleasure in front of him?
Daddy walks up to me and smiles down at me. “For her first time, I don’t want it to be in front of anyone else. I want to be able to watch and cherish the first time she comes undone for me.”
