I looked into his cold, grey eyes and hoped he saw the hatred I no longer bothered to mask. If I had the strength, I would have torn out his jugular with my teeth.
I had done everything he’d asked of me, even when I didn’t want to, when the aftermath always killed me a little more each time.
I suppressed parts of me to appease him, but no matter how hard I tried, it was never good enough.
Once upon a time, all I wanted was for him to remember I was his baby girl. Now, I wanted him dead. I wanted to feel his blood between my fingers and keep his head as a trophy.
“Feel better…now?” I wheezed out, choking on phlegm.
“You’ve learned nothing from any of this; you are truly hopeless.” He squeezed my cheeks and then shoved my face back in the dirt, a look of disgust twisting his features. “Your sins will eat you alive.” With one last shake of his head, he chuckled and regarded me with unfeeling eyes before standing up and strolling away.
“Take her past the border and leave her,” he demanded over his shoulder to my brothers, who had been standing by watching the events unfold.
“If you don’t kill me…Iwillkill you,” I called out to him.
He continued walking away, not bothering to give me so much as a backward glance. My hope that he would turn around and end it all was gone just as quickly as it had arrived.
My brothers rushed to obey his command. They each grabbed an upper arm and began dragging me face down across the ground. I gritted my teeth as my hands were secured behind my back with strips of twine.
“Let’s get this over with; I haven’t eaten supper yet,” my eldest brother grumbled, lifting me up and tossing me in the bed of his truck with an irritated sigh. I let out a soft grunt as my side impacted with the plastic floor.
A second later, the engine revved, and I was flying forward as the truck sped off into the night.
Much quicker than I expected, signs warning that we were about to leave a safe zone began to appear on the trees.
I remained on my stomach, trying to come up with a quick plan of action. I knew once we reached our destination that the inevitable would be moments away from happening.
And I was right.
Seconds after the truck came to a full stop, one of my brothers dropped the tailgate and grabbed hold of my habit to pull me out.
“We could fuck her now,” my younger brother, Noah, whispered, pressing his elbow into my back to keep me pinned down.
“No, Judy is enough for me. Besides, look at her, she’s filthy.”
At their words, my stomach twisted into a knot, acidic bile rising in my throat. Judy was our thirteen-year-old cousin.
How did I not know this was going on? When did my brothers start feeding on the bullshit our father spewed like every other brainwashed acolyte? This shouldn’t have surprised me as much as it did.
The entire Order was made up of one, giant incestuous family exchanging body fluids.
“Suit yourself; I don’t care what she looks like. I only want what’s between her legs.” Noah laughed. He gripped the dark fabric around my waist and started sliding it up.
“Make it quick; I’ll wait in the truck.”
The sound of retreating footsteps had one of my worst fears quickly becoming a reality. I was really being left alone to be violated, which was normal under usual circumstances, but never by my brothers.
“Don’t,” I choked out, struggling to move away.
“Shhh,” he blew in my ear, pressing the side of my face into the bed of the truck.
Grabbing my cloth underwear with one hand, he easily tore it away. His heavy cross amulet pressed into my back as he crushed me with his weight.
I heard the telltale sound of his belt being undone and my stomach turned to stone.
“Stop,” I pleaded a little louder, my voice chock-full of emotion.
He cleared his throat and spat into the palm of his hand, rubbing the DNA we shared between my ass cheeks. I swallowed repeatedly to hold down vomit but when his disgusting, hard cock pressed against my sensitive hole, it erupted from my mouth and dribbled down my chin, leaving an acidic taste on my tongue.
