Chapter 16
Ji Yue did not see Bo Tao that day. She searched for him without appearing to look. She prayed that every time she turned a corner, he would be there waiting. But she had to appear as if she didn’t pray, didn’t want, didn’t yearn for even the slightest view of him. The constant pretending was giving her a terrible headache, but she consoled herself that if she were caught, she could claim to be watching for the Emperor instead. After all, that’s what all the other virgins were doing.
They were less than two days away from the final selection. Everyone here would be selected as a bride. The only question was what level of bride and, of course, the last verification of virginity. Excitement was mounting now that everyone knew they would end up in one harem or another. Their days were occupied with etiquette instruction. Ji Yue was taught how an imperial consort sat (beautifully), how she should eat (sparingly), how she should walk (rarely and with great beauty), and what she should say (nothing). The Head Eunuch was in charge of this instruction, and so Ji Yue did her best to fade into the background. Unfortunately, that only increased his tight-lipped criticism of all she did. Meals, of course, were the worst. The Dowager’s critical eye saw everything. And even if she missed it, someone else was sure to catch it and tattle. Ji Yue had never met so many gossiping, backstabbing, bitchy women.She certainly had never expected to live her life among them!
Worse, Ji Yue had an extra layer of deception to maintain during meals. After all, she was supposed to have a secret, near undeniable craving for sweets. She had to remember to eat her food furtively, her hand motions rushed. Her anxiety needed to be clear, but under the surface. Which soon created a very real problem with her food. One minute she really was starving, and the next she couldn’t even face it.
And still Bo Tao stayed away. By the end of the evening meal, Ji Yue had worked herself into a state of high anxiety. She was convinced he had sent the message last night, and that she had failed him. He was now lying dead in some Peking garbage heap because she’d spurned him. It was completely ridiculous, but that didn’t stop her imagination from running wild. If a messenger came to her tonight, nothing would keep her from going.
Fortunately, the messenger came before final undressing. A eunuch sidled up to her as she was brushing out her hair. Though many girls kept their hair glued up out of practicality, Ji Yue had never liked the feel of hair glued like a heavy brick upon her head. So she took the extra time every day and night to brush it out. Tonight, a pair of soft male hands pulled the brush from her hands. She glanced up in shock at the pale-faced eunuch who immediately began stroking her with gentle a touch.
“What are you doing?” she said as she tried to jerk her head away.
Underneath the brush, he grabbed a hunk of her hair and held her firm. Apparently, the eunuch was a lot stronger than he looked. She glared at him in the mirror and fought the urge to grimace. First, she had to know what he wanted. But she didn’t have to do it nicely.
“Do you know,” she drawled, “that even a clean man–” that was the euphemism for a eunuch “–will feel great pain when hithard in the groin. I understand some will even pass out.”
In the mirror, the eunuch’s eyes widened and he softened his grip on her hair. But he did not release her. “I bring you a message,” he whispered. “You are to come with me to speak with the Emperor.”
So, not a message from Bo Tao. Her eyes stung more from that than the pain of having this man’s meaty fist wrapped around her hair. She lifted her chin. “I do not believe the Emperor would send someone as brutal as you. Release my hair now or suffer as only a man can.”
He opened his grip, and she twisted her head away from him. Then she held out her hand for the brush. He gave it to her carefully, obviously afraid that she might beat him with it.
“You may leave now,” she said.
He didn’t move. Instead, he gestured out her window. “It is not just you, Virgin Chen Ji Yue. Others have been asked to a private audience.”
She didn’t want to look; she was certain this was a trick. And yet her gaze was drawn to the window nonetheless. Was Bo Tao out there waiting in the shadows? No. But she did see three virgins being escorted somewhere. They each were accompanied by a eunuch, but the girls did not seem to be struggling. If anything, they appeared excited. Unfortunately, she couldn’t see well enough to know which of the virgins had been selected.
“Who goes to this special audience?”
“Are you scared?” he taunted. Then his gaze grew sly. “There will be food there. Special treats that are the Emperor’s favorite.”
Definitely a trick, but now she was caught in her own lies. If she were indeed desperate for sweets, this would be just the lure to get her to comply. She had to reassure the Dowager Consort that she could be manipulated by food. She had to keepon the Dowager’s good side at least for two more days, until after the final selection. Which meant...
Which meant she was just making excuses for herself. She wanted to go if only because she might see Bo Tao. It wasn’t likely, but it was more likely than if she sat here brushing her hair. And besides, the Emperor could not throw out all his virgins for sneaking about. Especially if they went believing they would see him.
“Chen Ji Yue!” the eunuch hissed. “You must come now or not at all!”
She pushed up from her chair. “I will go.” He reached out to take her arm, but she jerked it away. “I will walk on my own.” It was a false reassurance. The eunuch was clearly stronger than she was, but at least this way she could run if needed.
The eunuch bowed to her, his manner vaguely condescending. He knew more than he was saying, but she could think of no way to get the information out of him. So she gestured for him to precede her. She would follow and keep a wary eye out for problems. And for Bo Tao.
They moved quickly through the Forbidden City. To her surprise, two more girls were being ushered ahead and straight to the Emperor’s palace! It couldn’t possibly be a real appointment with the Emperor, could it? The very possibility made her heart race. She would make a better impression this time. She wouldn’t talk about insurgents or peasants or anything political at all. She would be sweet and beautiful and...
Oh no! Her hair was still down, flowing about her back like a washer girl’s. “Wait!” she panted. “I must fix my hair.”
“There isn’t time,” hissed the eunuch. “Besides, he likes it better this way. Do you think the timing is accidental? He wants you in partial dress.”
Her hands hovered about her head in indecision. She didn’t know what to believe or whom to trust. If only she couldsee Bo Tao. If only...
But he wasn’t here, and she would have to do her best without him. Remembering the way Bo Tao loved touching her hair, how he’d stroked it and buried his face in it, she decided to leave it down. If Bo Tao liked her hair free, perhaps the Emperor would, too. And why, oh why couldn’t her heart beat fast at the thought of seeing the Emperor rather than Bo Tao?
They made it to an entrance hidden by trees and a walled garden. She looked nervously at the opening. Once she stepped through that door, she would be trapped. But they were at the Emperor’s palace. She couldn’t afford to waste this opportunity. And maybe Bo Tao lurked in a darkened room just inside. So with a last glance about her, she nodded her head and ducked inside.
“This way, virgin,” a man’s voice sneered.
She glanced behind her for the eunuch who had escorted her, but he had not followed her inside. The last she saw of him was his leering grin as he closed the door.
