William smiled and kept his eyes closed. “I know, love. Just sleep for now.”
I wanted to protest, but my muscles felt like Jell-O, and before I knew it, I fell asleep.
When I woke up, I was alone. If this was another dream, I was going to be pissed. But I was still naked, andWilliam’s love bites decorated my skin.
I checked my phone to see if he had left any messages, but there was nothing. Feeling incredibly self-conscious, I quickly got dressed and debated on still going to the pub to bring him and Elspeth lunch. But it was late now, and choosing cowardice, my default setting, I stayed home to stress clean and overthink everything we’d just done.
Why would William leave without saying a word? And why didn’t he want to get anything in return?
Chapter 10
William
I’d never felt so out of sorts in my life. What the fuck came over me yesterday? It’d been a long time since I’d lost control like that, but being around Nairie was dangerous. It was the only time I felt powerless. I couldn’t hold myself back from her, and that was only going to end in heartbreak. The fact that she was a virgin was just another complication. I knew she’d had a crush on me since we were kids, but she deserved someone better.
She wouldn’t want to be with me if she knew my past sins and the threat of Angus always looming.
I was going to tell her it was a mistake, but I had to leave the house to help Elspeth with the pub. By the time we got back, Nairie was already in bed again.
I kept myself busy the next morning to avoid thinking about last night, but images would bob to the surface of my mind. Some primitive part of my brain got off on the fact that nobody had gone down on her before. To be the first one to give her that kind of pleasure made my dick harder than ever.
Just hearing her get off almost had me coming in my pants like a teenager. I growled in frustration and abandoned my workout.
What happened next in the shower was inevitable. I had to work off the tension, so I glided my hand along my hard length under the water in a firm grip. I hitcheda breath and rubbed myself faster, imagining Nairie writhing in my hands as I touched her warm, soft skin. I grunted and imagined going down on her from behind so my tongue could explore every inch of her depths while my fingers circled her clit. Would she like it rough? She seemed to like the dirty talk well enough.
The idea spurred me on as I imagined grabbing hold of her long hair and exploring her sweet sex with every inch of my cock.
I wanted her to feel my hard length inside her, to see the shock and pleasure in her eyes as I sank inside her sweet pussy. I bit my lip and stroked myself faster. It was the thought of her sweet moans that sent me over the edge as I released my load.
I placed my head on the cool tile and cleaned myself off. The girl had me behaving like an animal.
But I would do well to remember Nairie wasn’t someone I could just hook up with. She was the only woman outside of family who I’d ever gotten close to.
Although Shannon and I were together for several years, I never felt for her the way I do for Nairie, and that scared me. So I’d have to put an end to whatever this flirtation was. I wished in some universe, Nairie and I could be together—that we could both be selfish for once.
I was back downstairs on a call with the inn when I heard her enter the room.
Showcasing all her best assets, she was wearing jean shorts and a tank top. She looked so sweet, but I knew how ravenous she could be in bed, and that made me smile. I quickly ended the call, and Nairie tentatively smiled back at me, slowly making her way to lean against the counter across from me.
“Hey,” she said shyly.
“Hi.”
We stared at each other until Nairie turned away to giggle. She was still glowing from last night, and I caught a glimpse of the hickey I left on her neck. I felt a fleeting moment of satisfaction.
“So . . . last night.”
I cleared my throat. “Yeah. Listen, Nairie, I’m sorry.”
Nairie’s eyes dropped. She looked crestfallen, like she already knew what I was about to say. She was always so honest with her emotions, never able to hide them even if she tried, and I loved that about her.
“You didn’t enjoy it,” she said like a statement as if confirming something.
“No, that’s not it at all! It was amazing.”
“Oh?”
“Yes, it was incredible.”
