I watch him stand up—his gaze pinned on me—and he puts both his fingers in his mouth, licking me off him. I stare at him in complete shock. This is a new side of Rowan that I am so happy to see.
“One day, I’m going to let you clean my fingers for me. But tonight, it’s all for me.”
When he’s done savoring me on his fingers, I let my head fall back on the bed and close my eyes.Holy shit.
thirty-nine
ELLIE
I feellike my body is floating through the clouds, like a feather drifting with the wind. My head lies on Rowan’s chest, and I hear every slow heartbeat that can lull me to sleep.
After Rowan gave me the best head I’ve ever had, I wanted to return the favor, and he stopped me. I knew he saw my facial expression change, going from excited to confused to hurt, and he stopped me before my emotions could go any further.
I want this night to be about you,he spoke softly.I’ve waited years to have my chance of getting to taste you again. If you insist on giving me something tonight, let it be me holding you in my arms.
I thought Rowan had one side to him: a gentle, sweet man. After tonight, I’ve learned that he also has a little devil on his shoulder that comes out to play. We’ve both grown up. We’ve both explored different things. This was nothing like what we used to do. There was so much passion and fire.
He didn’t touch me with any hesitation. He touched me like heownedme.
I trace the tip of my finger along the ladybug tattoo I remember him having me pick out. It was his very first tattoo. Of course, I thought it was very cute, but I didn’t think he would get it. A simple, red ladybug.
“Did I ever tell you why my favorite color is blue?” Rowan breaks the comfortable silence first.
“No, you haven’t,” I answer quietly, lost in a trance of his tattoos.
I can hear a laugh from deep inside his chest. A hesitation. “The moment I fell in love with your eyes, it was game over. Blue took over my world.”
I pick up my head, my chin resting on his stomach when I look up at him. He continues to draw random shapes lazily on my skin.
“That was the cheesiest thing I’ve ever heard.” I smile and tease him.
The corner of his lip tugs up. “It was, wasn’t it?”
I pinch my two fingers together while squinting with one eye.
“I guess I’m cheesy, then, because it’s true,” he tells me while brushing a piece of hair away from my face.
The touch of his fingers sends a chill down my spine.
He blinks slowly at me like he’s the calmest he’s been in years. “Let me take you out again. A re-do.”
“Another date? I don’t know, Ro. Are you taking me out again because we’re just friends?” I poke fun at him.
He shakes his head, placing a hand on his face while he curses at himself. “That was incredibly stupid of me to say. I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay. I accept your apology. That’s what friends do.” I smirk.
“Okay, that’s enough.” He grabs my pillow and lightly hits me on the head, laughing.
We hear his phone buzz on the nightstand, both of us turning our heads toward it. He groans out of frustration. Reality pulls us out of this dreamy state of mind.
“I don’t want to get out of this bed,” he mutters.
“I know, but we have things to do,” I respond.
“The only things I want to do involve you, this bed, and some heavy breathing.”
“Rowan!” I exclaim in shock while my jaw drops from the unexpected response.
