Suddenly, Ryan grabs the frog off our lab table in one hammy fist. “Yeah… show your frog a little love.” He shoves it so close to my face that I can breathe in the scent of chemicals and death. With all my might I push away from him, knocking over the lab stool and causing enough of a commotion that the entire class stops to watch.
“My bad,” Ryan says. “I thought it said it was a prince….”
The class bursts into laughter. I turn seven shades of red.
“That’s enough!” Mrs. Brown says. “Ryan, go to the principal’s office; you and I will be seeing each other at detention this afternoon. Delilah, take the bathroom pass and go clean yourself up.”
As I grab my backpack and stumble out of the classroom, the students are silent. And then, just before I cross the threshold, I hear it: “Ribbit. Ribbit.” It’s one of the kids in the back, and suddenly everyone is snickering and Mrs. Brown is trying (and failing) to get them to quiet down.
The girls’ bathroom is empty. I scrub my hands and face and blot them dry with paper towels. Jules used to be my go-to girl whenever something horrendous happened—the person I could count on to make me feelbetter. But now I find myself searching through my backpack. Just like after my dream, the only person I really want to talk to right now is Oliver.
I rummage in my backpack, past my Biology textbook and my English binder and my lunch, but the book is missing.
“No,” I mutter, and I pull the textbooks out of the bag. All that’s left now is crumpled paper, nubby pencils, bits of crushed granola bars, and forty-two cents.
The fairy tale—which I had put in my backpack that morning with my own two hands—is gone.
It doesn’t take me long to decide that I’m not going back to Biology class. I’ll just tell Mrs. Brown I was so traumatized I was in desperate need of a guidance counselor. Instead, I hurry to the library, where I find Ms. Winx pasting bar codes into new books. “Ms. Winx,” I ask, “has anyone returnedBetween the Lines?”
“Aren’t you the one who has it checked out?”
“I’m pretty sure I left it by accident in the cafeteria before homeroom….”
“Well, if anyone turns it in, I’ll let you know.”
As I leave the library, in the pit of my stomach is a stone. What if I can’t find the book? What if it’s gone forever?
What will I do without him?
I’ve never been in love, but I’ve always imagined it—weirdly—like some sort of OxiClean commercial. The TV host shows a scene from an ordinary day, and thentakes a big old sponge soaked in love and swipes away the stains. Suddenly that same scene is missing all the mistakes, all the loneliness. The colors are like jewels, ten times richer than they were before. The music is louder and clearer.Love,the host will say,makes life a little brighter.
When I’m talking to Oliver, I feel like there’s nobody in the world but the two of us.
When I’m talking to Oliver, I want to keep talking forever. I want to know how old he was when he learned to ride a horse, and what his favorite color is, and what pops into his mind just before he falls asleep.
When I’m talking to Oliver, I wonder what it would be like if he held my hand.
In spite of what Ryan and my mother think about me and fairy tales—it’s not that I’ve been looking for a prince.
It’s that, without even trying, Oliver makes me feel like a princess.
***
Seventh period Jules and I have Driver’s Ed, the only class we share this semester. The third kid in our car, Louis Lamotte, who always smells like soup, is at the wheel. Which means that Jules and I are stuck in the back while Mr. Barnaby tries to keep Louis on the right side of the road.
“So are you going to tell me why you’re pissed off at me, or do I have to play Twenty Questions?” Jules says.
“I’m not mad at you!”
“Yeah, right. You don’t answer my texts all weekend, you don’t wait for me after school, and today at lunch when you were totally ignoring me and I told you I had an asteroid growing out of my butt, you said,That’s nice.”
“I’m just a little distracted,” I tell her. “Really, I’m not angry.”
“Girls,” Mr. Barnaby says, “you’re supposed to beobserving.”
Jules totally ignores him. “When you accidentally tripped Allie McAndrews last year during the hundred-meter dash at Field Day and she broke her knee, I was the first one to know. You called me up hysterical and told me I had to run off to Mexico with you because you weren’t coming back to school. Today, I found out that you broke Allie’s nose from that kid who chews gum too loud in the library.” She looks at me. “I don’t even know that kid’snameand he knew something about my best friend that I didn’t.”
“Look,” I tell Jules. “I’m not hiding anything from you. And you’re still my best friend. Things at home are just… crazy right now. My mother wants to take me to a shrink.”
