“Ibelieve you,” Angela says. “Maybe even the judge will believe you. But by that time, Zoe, you’ll have been dragged through the coals in a courtroom. The allegation will be all over the newspapers. And even if the case comes out in our favor, the fact that you were accused might be what sticks in everyone’s minds.”
I get up from my seat. “I need to talk to Lucy. If I could just—”
“I don’t want you anywhere near her,” Angela yells. “Do you know what a field day Wade will have with that?”
Stunned into silence, I fall back into my chair.
“You have a lot to think about, Zoe,” she says. “Because you might get these embryos—but it could cost you your career.”
Angela requests a day to digest the new information before the trial resumes. My mother and Vanessa and I sneak down to the parking lot via the custodian’s elevator again, but this time, instead of feeling like we’ve outsmarted the other side, it only feels like we’re hiding.
“Take a walk with me,” my mother says, as soon as we are outside.
We are in the rear of the courthouse near the loading dock. I tell Vanessa I’ll meet her at the car, and then I follow my mother to a big green Dumpster. Two women wearing summer dresses that make them look like sausages stuffed into casings are smoking cigarettes. “Dwayne’s an ass,” one of them says. “When he comes back, I hope you’ll tell him to go jump in a lake.”
“Excuse me,” my mother says. “We need a little privacy.”
The women look at her as if she’s crazy, but they leave us alone. “Do you remember when I found out I was making four thousand dollars less than Hudd Sloane when we were both working at the travel agency?”
“Vaguely,” I say. I was about twelve at the time. I remember my mother saying a strike was a strike, even if your union was a party of one.
“And do you remember what I did when your kindergarten class readIf I Ran the Circusand I fought against the message it sent about animal cruelty?”
“Yes.”
“And you know I’m the first one out there with a sign when it comes to campaigning politically for any female candidate,” she adds.
“You are.”
“I’m telling you this because I want you to remember that I’m a fighter.”
I look at her. “You think I should take Wade Preston on.”
My mother shakes her head. “Actually, Zoe, I think you need to let this go.”
I just stare at her. “So you’re advocating letting the family of a teenage girl spread lies about me. Doing nothing.”
“No, I’m thinking of you and what’s best for you. People in a small town—and Rhode Island functions as one, honey—they remember things. Not accurately, either. I remember the mother of a kid in your graduating class who somehow had convinced herself your father died of a heart attack while in bed with his mistress.”
“Daddy had a mistress?” I say, shocked.
“No. That’s the point. But this woman was so sure of it because that’s how she recalled it. And even if you were absolutely right to hug that sad little girl when she was crying; even if you are the only person in her life who showed her any kindness for who she truly is—that’s not what people in the community will remember. Years from now, you’ll still be the one who was accused of getting too close to one of your students.” My mother hugs me. “Give Max the embryos. And move on. You’ll still have a beautiful partner who can have kids. You’ll have your music.”
I feel a lone tear streak down my face as I turn away from her. “I don’t know what to do.”
She smiles sadly. “You can’t lose if you’re the one who walks away from the game before it’s over.”
It is, I realize, exactly what Lucy would say.
Instead of driving home, Vanessa drives to the Point Judith Lighthouse. We take off our shoes and walk across the grassy carpet that borders the structure. We take a picture for a vacationing elderly couple. We shield our eyes from the sun and try to see if the ferry is coming from or going to Block Island. In the adjacent park, we sit on a bench and hold hands, even though one woman who sees us frowns and abruptly turns the other way.
“I have to tell you something,” Vanessa finally says.
“That we can adopt?” I guess.
She tilts her head, as if that’s not at all what she was thinking about. “I lied on the witness stand.”
“I know. I was there, remember?”
