“No. This is only a measure to make sure you’re not going to skip town if they let you leave.”
Ruth takes a deep breath. “Okay. But you have to do me a favor. You have to tell my son that I’m all right.”
I nod, and then she nods.
In that moment, we’re not black and white, or attorney and accused. We’re not separated by what I know about the legal system and what she has yet to learn. We are just two mothers, sitting side by side.
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THIS TIME, ASI walk through the gallery of the courtroom, I feel like I’ve put on corrective lenses. I notice onlookers I didn’t pay attention to before. They may not be tattooed like the baby’s father, but they are white. Only a few are wearing Doc Martens; the rest are in sneakers. Are they skinheads, too? Some hold signs with Davis’s name on them, some wear powder-blue ribbons pinned to their shirts in solidarity. How did I miss this the first time I came into the courtroom? Have they assembled to support the Bauer family?
I think about Ruth walking down the street in East End and wonder how many other residents questioned what she was doing there, even if they never said it to her face.How incredibly easy it is to hide behind white skin,I think, looking at these probable supremacists. The benefit of the doubt is in your favor. You’re not suspicious.
The few black faces in the room stand out in harsh counterpoint. I walk up to the boy Ruth acknowledged earlier, who immediately stands. “Edison?” I say. “My name is Kennedy.”
He is taller than I am by nearly a foot, but he still has the face of a baby. “Is my mama all right?”
“She’s fine, and she sent me out here to tell you so.”
“Well, you took your sweet time,” says the woman beside him. She has long braids shot through with red, and her skin is much darker than Ruth’s. She is drinking a Coke, although there’s no food or drink allowed in the courtroom, and when she sees me looking at the can she raises an eyebrow as if she is daring me to say something.
“You must be Ruth’s sister.”
“Why? Because I’m the only nigga in this room other than her son?”
I reel backward at the word she uses, which I am sure is exactly the reaction she’s going for. If Ruth seemed judgmental or prickly, then her sister is a porcupine with an anger management problem. “No,” I say, in the same tone I use with Violet when I try to reason with her. “First of all, you’re not the only…person of color…here. And second, your sister told me you were with Edison.”
“Can you get her out?” Edison asks.
I focus my attention on him. “I’m going to try my hardest.”
“Can I see her?”
“Not right now.”
The door leading to chambers opens and the clerk enters, telling us to rise as he announces the judge’s return.
“I have to go,” I tell him.
Ruth’s sister fixes her gaze on me. “Do your job, white girl,” she says.
The judge takes the bench and re-calls Ruth’s case. Ruth is brought up from the bowels of the building again, and takes a spot beside me. She gives me a questioning look, and I nod:He’s all right.
“Ms. McQuarrie,” the judge sighs. “Have you had ample time to speak with your client?”
“Yes, Your Honor. Just days ago Ruth Jefferson was a nurse at Mercy–West Haven Hospital, caring for women in labor and their newborns as she has for the past twenty years. When a medical emergency occurred involving a baby, Ruth worked with the rest of the hospital personnel trying to save the child’s life. Tragically, it was not meant to be. In the pending investigation surrounding what happened, Ruth was suspended from her job. She is a college graduate; her son is an honor student. Her husband is a military hero who gave his life for our country in Afghanistan. She has family in the community, and equity in the house she lives in. I ask the court to set reasonable bail. My client is not a flight risk; she has no prior record; she’s willing to abide by any particular conditions the court wants to set on her bail. This is a very defendable case.”
I’ve painted Ruth as an upstanding American citizen who has been misunderstood. Just about the only thing I don’t do is take out an American flag and start waving it around.
The judge turns to Ruth. “How much equity are we talking about?”
“I beg your pardon?”
“What’s the value of the mortgage on your house?” I ask.
“A hundred thousand dollars,” Ruth replies.
The judge nods. “I’m going to set bail at one hundred thousand dollars. As a condition of the bail, I’ll accept the house being posted. Next case?”
