She frowns up at me."Oh.For real?How long, exactly?”
"Not sure you wanna hear about that right now."
She nuzzles closer to me, cheek against my chest.I grab the throw blanket from the back of the couch and wrap it over us, caressing the long curve of her leg from the back of her knee to her ass."I do, Noah.There's nothing you can't tell me."
"It's not a big story.It's just that she…" I pause.It's weird to talk about this, about her, with Morgan.Especially this, and especially now.“She just wasn’t…Taylor didn't do that.She hated it.She always hated it and I knew it from pretty much day one, so it just…it just wasn't part of…things for her and I.”
"Never?"She sounds downright shocked.
I shake my head."Never."I shrug."Just not her thing.And to be clear, I never, ever felt like I was missing anything.I never felt resentment or anything.We…she more than made up for that one thing she didn't want to do insomany other ways.So, the real answer is that no, I haven't gotten a blowjob before.I may have, before her, but there was only…what?One person before Taylor?Two?And I was so young back then I barely remember anything."
"So when you jerked off, thinking about me doing that to you…?"
"It was a fantasy, Morgan.Something I assumed would always bejustafantasy.I never expected you to…to actuallydoit."I scrub my face with both hands, exhaling raggedly.“It was so unexpected.Incredible, possibly life-changing, and very, very unexpected.
She turns to face me, straddling me.“Well, I aim to please, Captain Austin."Her grin is easy and hot—turned on, brimming with a boil of emotions, all of them aroused and ready for more."I…."she ducks her head."It's been so long since I've done that.I just sort of…I guess I went a little crazy.It felt so good, though, Noah.It feltsofucking good to make you feel that way.And now that I know what you just told me?Ohman—I want to make you feel that way all the time."
I laugh."I mean, that wouldn't suck."
"No, but I do."
I take her face in mine.Cup her cheeks.Caress her lips.“Thank you, Morgan.I still can't quite believe how…how incredible you make me feel."
She blushes.“It's not a quid pro quo, thing, Noah, I promise, but youdidmake me feel exactly that good, too."A pause, a look away from me, speculative and thoughtful, and then she looks at me with a question written on her face.“Why was it so unexpected, Noah?Be real with me.”
I consider how best to answer truthfully yet with tact and consideration for her feelings.“Um.”
“Don’t hold back now, Noah Austin.”
I shake my head.“I'm not.But Icanthink about my responses and how to be truthful yet kind.”
She tips her head to the side, her expression softening like melted butter.“Noah.You’re too sweet.”She slaps her hands onto my shoulder.“Now.The truth, please.Why was it so shocking that I would go down on you?”
“You haven’t done anything with anyone other than kiss in a very long time, you said.I suppose I just sort of assumed, obviously incorrectly, that you’d want to ease back into things, you know?Like, one step at a time.And my experience with receiving oral sex being what it is, I suppose I assumedifyou didn’t mind doing that, it’d be later on, when you’re more comfortable with me or…or…with us and…things?”I laugh awkwardly.“I don’t know, Morgan.Maybe I'm just a clueless old dumbass.”
She leans in, kisses me quickly, softly.“You’re not that, Noah.You’re sweet, thoughtful, and respectful.And to be honest with you, I wasn’t expecting to go there yet either.But the heat of the moment just sort of took over, y’know?I suppose I got carried away and realized even though it’s been a very,verylong time since I've done that for anyone, I apparently still like doing it.”
I scrutinize her.“You really do?”
She nods.“I'll never lie to you, Noah.I really, truly do enjoy it.”A smirk, a grin.“With the right man, I mean.And you aremost definitelythe right man.”
“Well, I can’t say I’d stop you if you want to do it again, but I don’t know that I'll ever be comfortable asking you for it.”I pull her to me.Kiss her, slowly, deeply.“And now the thing is, sweetheart…" I trail off, kiss her again.
She pulls away after a breathless instant searching me.“The thing is what, Noah?”
"I need to feel you come all over my mouth, Morgan."I tip her head back, kiss her throat.“I need to taste you.”
She whimpers, a delicate, desperate sound."Noah!”
