Lying here in his arms is as close to being happy as I’ve ever felt.
Probably will ever feel again.
Huddled together on this back seat with me in his arms, we kiss. I’m not sure for how long, but I do know that I never want him to leave.
I know that once I take him home, I’ll come back here and feel like something is missing, afraid to admit to myself that it might be him.
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
AIDEN
I click the button.
The treadmill speeds up.
Not fast enough.
I hit it again.
Then again.
And then one more time.
My feet are pounding against the belt. I’m dripping sweat. Breathing hard.
It’s not enough.
It’s been a few days, and I can’t stop thinking about it. Ivan has been on my ass. I told him I haven’t found the stupid fucking elephant. If he wants it so goddamn bad, he can ransack that place and find it himself.
Just the thought of that twists my gut.
But it begs the question of why he hasn’t. He’s being... patient, almost to the point of paranoia, and I don’t know why. Koda’s been weird lately too, but he was always a little weird to begin with. It’s almost like I’m on the outside of some secret no one’s shared yet.
I hit the button again.
I’m barely able to keep up.
The belt hums loudly.
His mouth. His eyes. His arms.
The way he held me. We talked for hours, just the two of us, naked, kissing, and talking. I nearly fell asleep. Then images of Koda finding me ass naked in the back seat of my car made me pull away and take him home.
Which I really didn’t want to do.
I’ve never been touched by someone like that. Hugs, kisses, it’s all stupid. It’s distracting.
I hit the button again.
“Whoa.” Cam comes over and hits the button a few times, slowing my machine.
“What the fuck are you doing?” I demand.
“You’re going to fly off this thing, man. Chill. Why are you trying to set fire to the wall with your glare? You look pissed.”
Do I? Frustrated.Yes.
I hit the button and wait for the machine to slow to a stop. I’m heaving, breaths labored, and angrier than ever.
