“I wanted to watch and make sure you weren’t going to up and leave on me.” I roll over toward him, gathering him against me and kissing the top of his head.
Sawyer’s arms go around me instantly.
“No,” I say.
He kisses me.
“Not going anywhere.”
“Yeah, well. You may rethink that.”
“Why?”
“Because Jamie and Noah invited me to Sunday dinner at Jamie’s mom’s house. They’re celebrating their engagement and I’m going.”
“Well . . .” I nod. “Have fun with that.”
Sawyer laughs. “And you’re going with me.”
“Weird. I had plans to stay naked in this bed all day. Kind of wanted you to be here too, but I’ll enjoy the solitude.”
“You’re coming.” He blinks at me flatly.Dammit, he’s cute.
“Is this what being your boyfriend’s going to be like?”
“Worse.” He grins wider. White teeth, bright smile, face like the sun as it shines on me. A little slice of light warming up my world.
And I will fuck it up. It’s only a matter of time.
For now, I’ll shove it away. He lifts up, reaching over me to grab my phone and swiping it open with no problem. I don’t have a password. No reason to. “What are you doing?”
“Putting their address in. You’re taking me. We’re going to have a great time. Lia will love you. Then you’re going to bring me home and I’m going to spend the night putting my mouth on various parts of your body.” He kisses my nose. “If you’re a good boy at dinner.”
“That sounds awful.” I smirk. “I’m feeling smothered already.”
Sawyer grabs me, pulling me against his warm chest. I place a hand in the center and enjoy the way his tan skin feels under my fingers.
“I’m going to smother the shit out of you.”
“I’m really going to hate that.” I wrap my arms around him. I don’t want to get up. This feels so happy and new.
All the people around me formed connections. Even Koda’s had his share of silly relationships. But I’ve never liked anyone as a friend, let alone something more. He, she, they... It didn’t matter to me.
I didn’t want any of it.
With him, I just want everything.
And when he leaves me, because he will, I don’t think I’ll want it ever again. It’s taken me this long to find him, and I could go the rest of my life feeling these moments and keeping myself happy. I don’t want any of it if it’s not with him.
“I need to shower,” I say.
“You want company?”
I nod. He leans in, kissing me slowly, and I give in to the weight of his body as he moves on top of me between my thighs. My hands smooth along his spine. I don’t ever want to leave thisbed. He begins to kiss a path down my chest, but I’ve had enough of letting him take care of me.
I stop him.
He looks confused until I turn the tables and press him down onto his back in this bed. Then I look up and fit myself between his thighs. He rarely wears anything but briefs while we’re here alone, and I thank him for that simple kindness.
