I made sure to meet him on the opposite side of town. I didn’t want to take any chances of running into my kids’ daddy or his people. But damn if the shit wasn't hard as hell.
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I continued to date on a regular basis, but that was it. I wasn’t looking for anything too heavy. A month had passed and I decided to come out of hiding. I’d found an apartment on the far northwest side of Houston. It was a three bedroom. I figured since my kids were all still small that we could manage the space.
I still didn’t want Jahrein to know where I was living, so I had him meet me at Red’s house. I was trying to choose the safest grounds for myself.
I made it there before Jahrein and the kids. Red was babbling on and on about fighting for my marriage and shit. That ship had long ago sailed.
“Raven, he can’t handle those kids by himself. They cry for you every night. He had to hire a damn nanny. There’s a total stranger around my grandkids. Jah is so stressed.”
“So what?” I snapped. “You don’t think that I’ve been under stress for all these years? All the lying and cheating I put up with. This nigga actually had a baby on me.” I vented. I was glad that I’d taken two bars so I wasn’t feeling any pain. My heart was numb.
I was high as hell and was ready to read her son’s ass.
“Raven, are you on some bars?” she asked me. The Queen of Handle Bars could point out another pill head a mile away.
“Yep.” I stated tartly.
“Don’t you think that you’re getting a little out of hand with those pills?” she asked with concern.
Just then her ugly ass son and his kids walked through the door. I had damn near forgotten that I had five kids and the youngest was just nearly three months old! I felt so guilty. I was making my children suffer and that was selfish of me.
“Mommy!” Junior, Jhyrah, Jahrae, and Jahreiah all screamed. They all bombarded me. I took all of it in. It felt like I hadn’t seen their faces in ages. I had just missed Jahreiah’s first birthday. In just one month she seemed to have grown so much.
Jahrein stood holding the baby. I stood up and held my hands out. “Let me hold him.”
He gave me my baby and I had to suppress my tears. I couldn’t be away from my baby for one more day. Holding him helped me remember what I loved about motherhood. I took a seat and just gazed at my little precious Jahlero and caressed his small hands.
I was hoping that Jahrein would give me and my children some time alone. “I want to just be with my kids. You can come get them later on.” I told him.
“I aint going nowhere.” he snapped.
“Mommy, are you coming home?” Jahrein Junior asked me.
“Well baby, mommy has a new house. You want to go home with me?” I caressed the top of his head.
He looked back at Jahrein seemingly asking for approval, and then back at me. “Can daddy come too?”
Jahrein interrupted us. “My kids aint going nowhere with you.”
I ignored him. “No, baby. You can visit your daddy on the weekends.”
“Give me my baby.” he snapped.
“No.” I said sternly as I rocked my son.
“Bitch, your ass is high. I can see it in your eyes. Give me my baby!” he yelled.
He had the nerve to have an attitude. He violated me time after time and had the nerve to stand there and yell at me.
“Mykids are leaving with me. And little do you know but you aint their daddy anyways.” I lied. I knew that I was reaching with that one, but I wanted to crush him.
“Okay, Raven you’re taking it too far. Those kids can hear you. And you couldn’t pay a blind man to believe that those kids are not Jah’s. Hell, they don’t even look like you.” Red interrupted.
Jahrein clenched his jaw. “No, mama you aint gotta tell her ass nothing. If she say some shit like that in front of my kids again I’ma break my foot off in her ass.” he lashed. “You can say whatever you want about me, to me, but keep my kids out of it.”
“Whatever. I’m takingmykids home with me.” I rolled my eyes.
