“Man, look, you aint pulling that sympathy card today, hoe. You must think that I didn’t know that it was you who called CPS on us.”
On the low, I had been playing crazy with Raven, blaming everything on Khalil, but deep down I knew that Tyra was behind most of the harassment we’d been going through. Tyra was just such a touchy subject that I’d avoided talking about her at all costs. Especially because anytime Tyra tried reaching out, then Raven would have a million questions on the backend.
She’d ask about my sex life with Tyra. Why was I attracted to her. Did I kiss her. Eat her pussy. Trick on her. Love her. And no matter how I answered her, she was never seemingly satisfied with the answers. So, I tried my best not to talk about her.
I knew that Tyra was being vindictive, and I wasn’t surprised, because shit had gotten murky between us, while me and Raven were going through our changes. Out of anger, I’d done some fucked up shit, including literally pissing in Tyra’s mouth. Then I stooped to a new low, and pulled my nigga’s Amir’s coattail to Tyra hoe-ass ways, including how me and my niggas had ran a train on her a few times.
Amir had been fucking with Tyra, while Raven called herself leaving me. Honestly, I wasn’t even mad about it. I had been praying for God to send her a distraction, so that she could stop chasing after me. Hell, I had even given Amir my blessings to fuck with her. However, I had changed my mind, deciding that I didn’t want to see Tyra happy, after we’d had that run-in with Raven at the mall.
What pissed me off the most was the fact that nothing was as it seemed. I know that Raven thought that I was living a double life. But that couldn’t have been further from the truth. In fact, I had been keeping my distancefrom Tyra, until Raven ran off, leaving me with the kids.
For a minute, she’d thrown me completely off, and I wasn’t thinking straight. I would pull up to see JJ, and have my kids with me. Then while we were visiting, I got a business call, and ended up leaving my kids with Tyra. A couple of times. Then after getting confirmation that Raven was dealing with other niggas, I slipped up and fucked Tyra. Fucking up any semblance of a boundary I had created between us.
It didn’t take long before I’d snapped back to reality, and put plenty of distance between myself and Tyra. And finally, it seemed like she’d woken up and smelt the coffee. She was fucking with Amir, and leaving me the fuck alone. And then…JJ birthday comes, and she guilt-trips me into spending some time with him. She was just tagging along, because I was once again in a fucked-up headspace, because Raven was openly fucking with Khalil. So, I felt like letting her come along would keep JJ busy, as I was honestly detached.
Running into Raven at the galleria was the last thing I needed, and Tyra pissed me off when she didn’t just fall back. Knowing that we were just there together on some co-parenting shit, it was no reason for her to say a word to Raven. Instead, she’d argued with Raven, like she had a legitimate leg to stand on, or I had been feeding her false hope. It was like she couldn’t wait for that moment, making it seem like she was my side bitch, showing me that she’d sabotage my marriage at any opportunity she had. And at that moment, I decided to stop sparing her.
I made it my business to tell Amir that she’d recently sucked my dick and I’d pissed in her mouth. Amongstother shit. That nigga didn’t hesitate to drop her like a bad habit. And that was really why she’d been harassing me and Raven.
Initially, I was taking Tyra’s little bullshit stunts to the chin, like when she busted out my windows, and spray painted my truck. However, when she called CPS, I knew that this was crossing into a different territory. And her being JJ’s mama wasn’t enough for me to spare the bitch.
“I didn’t call CPS,” Tyra lied.
“Yeah, alright. And I didn’t pay somebody who works for CPS to give me your name, neither.”
“What? That’s illegal.”
“Right. And you just told on yourself, bitch.”
“Bitch?”
“Yeah, you heard me. You wasting all this time fucking with me and my family. All you doing is shooting yourself in the foot. Cause I can really bring your stupid ass to your knees.”
“And that would make you feel good about yourself?”
I sucked my teeth. “Man, miss me with that reverse psychology. The only weak-minded muthafucka on this phone is your stupid ass. Tell me how it felt to fuck behind your cousin. What about the time you let Jared fuck? Tony. Ray-Ray. Did you like it when all your family distanced their selves? No, no. Better yet, did it make you feel good to give birth to a baby I never wanted? Huh? Did that make you fucking happy?”
“What?” Her voice cracked, as I merely put a mirror up to her face. “You’re really fixing your mouth to say that, after JJ’s been here for four fucking years, Jahrein?”
“Is time supposed to change anything? Is that what you believe? That you can have a baby, after a man tells you that he don’t want no kids with you, and then he suddenly falls in love with the baby? Do we have to ignore how we arrived at this point? Are you now a victim, after plotting and scheming your way into my life?”
She sniffed. “Okay. Maybe I deserve all that. But what about JJ, Jahrein? That’s the part I’m not understanding. Is there really no love for him in that ice cold heart of yours?”
“Yeah, I love him,” I admitted. “But it feels different. Because he’s attached to some toxic ass shit.”
“So, if you love him, then why did you let Raven talk you into saying that you wouldn’t deal with him no more?”
“Keep her name out of your fucking mouth,” I growled. “That’s always the problem, right there. And fuck it, let’s keep it real here. Raven didn’t convince me to do shit. Cutting ties with you and JJ had beenmyidea. Not hers.”
For a second, the phone fell silent, before Tyra loudly sobbed into the phone. “What the fuck? How can you be so fucking evil?”
“Evil? Bitch, you called CPS, and could’ve had my kids taken. The fuck is you saying? And then it infuriated me to think that I’d actually trusted you to watch them a few times. All the while, you didn’t give a fuck about them, and would’ve been perfectly okay with them being removed from our home. Aint no coming back from that. I’m not coming anywhere near you. This shit is too fresh for JJ to come to my house. So, realistically, whether I verbally said it or not, JJ wascaught in the middle, and I wasn’t gonna be spending time with him. Now, I can’t speak for the future. But right now, today, the most I can do is provide for him. Shit, unless you wanna sign your rights over to one of my cousins. At least then, I could go visit him.”
“What? Nigga, you got me so fucked up!”
“And you got me fucked up too. So, I guess we even.”
“Nah.” She spat. “We aint even. Nowhere close. But you’ll be seeing me, Jahrein. On God, you will. And I bet I make you eat those fucking words.”
