I had to laugh. Jahrein was dead wrong and I would hate to be in those other bitches’ shoes. He was never so callus towards me. I was glad to see that he didn’t havestrong feelings for that chick. I don’t know if I would’ve been able to handle that. My heart was smiling as I watched home girl struggle to walk away.
“Come on, y’all.” Jahrein told the kids never bothering to give Amber a second glance.
I was standing there just giggling my ass off. I was like what the hell are we doing? We were taking our kids through some unnecessary changes. He’d been tripping. I’d been tripping. It was time for us to get our shit together.
“What’s so damn funny?” he raised a brow.
“Us.” I laughed.
“Us?” he sounded confused.
“Yeah, us. We can’t keep playing tug-a-war with five little human beings. This is not right. They don’t even deserve it.”
“Then what do you suggest that we do, because I aint living apart from them.” Jahrein said seriously. It sent chills down my spine to know that he was determined to be a permanent fixture in his children’s lives.
“I don’t know Jahrein, but this here aint working.”
“That’s on you, Raven. We can’t fix nothing if you aint willing to try.”
“I’m willing.” I said a little above a whisper.
“Come again?” he urged. “I couldn’t hear you.”
“I said I’m willing.” I spoke up just a bit more.
“So, what does that mean?” he asked me as he walked over to my side of the truck.
“I don’t know. Maybe we can try to fix things.” I hunched my shoulders.
“You mean the living arrangements or our marriage?”
I took a second to think about my answer. “Both.” I finally replied.
“Are you sure? I mean, because once we go there aint no turning back. No more Khalil. No more running when you get tired of dealing with shit.”
I sighed. “Jahrein, I know that.”
“I’m just making sure because I don’t want no misunderstandings.” he said as he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me close. It felt like it had been an eternity since he’d held me that way. I could finally breathe again.
I placed my head on his chest and had never felt more at peace.
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Instead of heading to my place that I shared with Khalil I headed home with Jahrein. The kids we worn out so it wasn’t long before they were all asleep. I was kind of feeling anxious about being with him. It reminded me of my first time.
I was a little self-conscious about my body. I wanted to keep my clothes on. Things were more pronounced when I was nude and I was trying to avoid a certain topic.
Jahrein held me as we lay in bed. He was placing the sweetest kisses on my neck.“I missed you so much.” He whispered over and over.
I couldn’t completely focus on him because I was trying to tune out my ringing cell phone. Finally Jahrein reached for it.
“Hello.” he spoke into my phone.
“Who the fuck is this?” I heard Khalil shout.
Jahrein sucked his teeth. “Nigga, who the fuck you think it is?”
“Say, main, let me talk to Raven.”
