“ButI have a conscience and I can’t let the vampires take over the world knowing Iam meant to stop it. I have this Devi here inside of me.” I pounded my chest. “She’sfull of power and waiting to lash out when the chance strikes. I’m not myself; I’mpart her. I can’t get rid of her until I fulfill my purpose. Only then will Ibe one hundred percent Aurora. I’m doing the best I can to live both lives. Youdon’t understand what it’s like. The duality is maddening sometimes. Human,werewolf, witch, Devi. I’m on the edge of losing it.” My eyes were wild. Ineeded him to understand. I was barely holding my shit together lately. He wasmy rock and I needed him to be solid right now.
Kaigave me an expression of pity. “I’m sorry, I didn’t realize it was that hard. Ican’t imagine what it must feel like to share your body, to feel like youractions are not your own.” He tenderly tucked a strand of hair behind my earand eyed my lips.
Ishivered thinking about it. “I just want this over, Kai. I want to use me asbait. I want Layla to show up and I want to rip her head off and burn thebody.”
Hisdeep rumble of laughter made me grin. He kissed my chin. “Then that’s what youshall have, my love.”
Iwas still straddling him … naked. I gave him my best seducing look. “Wouldn’tit be a cool story to tell our child that they were conceived at the hotsprings,” I kissed him, “one warm summer night after we had a big fight?”
Helicked his lips in anticipation and kissed me again, his greedy lips partingwith hunger. Standing up, he hoisted me out of the hot tub as I continued tostraddle his waist and kiss him. Walking us over to a soft bed of grass, he layme down, kissing my neck, then my chest, my belly button. I moaned. I could dothis. I could have everything I wanted in life. I could have it all. I would.
*
Iawoke the next morning with a grin. The night before was amazing. Mist creptdown from the trees, rolled across the grass and saturated our lovemaking.
Afterdressing, I went out into the kitchen. Kai was standing over the stove. On thecounter was orange juice, a veggie omelet, toast, fresh fruit, and two bottlesof vitamins.
Ilaughed. “What is all this?” I asked.
Kaiturned around holding a skillet with veggie patties. “Take one of the prenatalvitamins and then another of the DHA. Then enjoy your breakfast.”
Ilaughed. “Kai, this is enough food for the entire pack! Also, I’m pretty surewerewolves don’t get birth defects. We heal, remember? Never heard of awerewolf with cancer or anything.”
Helooked at the pills. “Take them anyway.”
Ishrugged. “Okay.” It was adorable. He was such a protective guy, I wouldn’tdeny him this.
“So… when are we planning on going after Layla?” I said casually as we ate. We hadagreed to the plan last night, right?
Hestared at me. “I was hoping to put it off as long as possible.”
“Kai,”I started, but he put up a hand to stop me.
“Iwill start planning the operation and we can go tomorrow.”
Inodded. “How’s Max with the whole Tara thing?”
Kaishook his head. “Completely guilt-ridden. This will help take his mind off ofit. Brett can’t reach Sadie. They are blocking the mate bond.”
Mymouth opened. “Is that possible?”
Heshrugged. “It shouldn’t be. Witches,” he grumbled.
Irolled my eyes.
Aftereating as much as I possibly could, Sylvia knocked on the door. She was withGretchen and a few other witches.
“Hey,guys, are we having a lesson today?” I asked, confused.
Sylviashook her head, clutching some glass bottles and a velvet bag. “No, I thoughtwe could try something, a new spell.” She raised a perfectly manicured eyebrowat me.
Lunapurred and rubbed herself up against Gretchen’s legs. “Okay, let’s go outside.Kai doesn’t like witchy stuff in the house.”
Kaigrumbled behind me. “I never said that.”
Ishrugged. He didn’t have to, I felt it.
Sylviagestured to Kai. “Actually, the spell experiment will be on him.”
