Sweet Jesus.He had a filthy mouth on top of everything else? I had no hope of surviving this man.
Not that I ever had.
“Come on, baby. Come all over my hand like a good girl.”
My orgasm was sharp, cutting through me while I gasped into Lee’s mouth, somehow remembering we weren’t alone in this house, despite the world beginning and ending with Lee at the moment.
Or always.
I shook against his chest as I came down, the euphoria edged with dread.
I’d been ruined by Lee a long time ago, but I was on my way to being destroyed. This was why I’d never been devastated when my relationships ended. Sad, sure, and alwaysdisappointed at another failure. But I’d never given anyone the power to truly break my heart because I didn’t have one.
I’d given it away when I was sixteen.
“As many times as I pictured that,” Lee said, raining kisses over my face and down my neck, “I wasn’t prepared. Shit, Stell, you’re a fucking goddess.”
I burst out laughing, covering my face with my hands and taking steady breaths to slow my racing pulse.
“You’re okay?” Lee asked, hovering over me while he stroked my cheek, peering down at me as if I were something precious and fragile. All that adoration in his gaze made my heart swell and seize.
“My head is spinning, but in a good way, I promise,” I said, my words scratchy as I let my hands drift down his chest and slip under his T-shirt. His skin was warm and smooth as my fingertips traveled up his torso.
“Lose the shirt, Doc,” I said, smoothing my hands up his back until he peeled his T-shirt over his head.
“Wow,” I breathed out, skimming my fingers down his chest and over the trail of hair dusting his abs and disappearing into his boxers. I couldn’t take my eyes off him, now that I had given myself permission to look. “Can I touch you?”
Lee dropped his chin to his chest and groaned.
“I won’t last if you touch me. I’m barely hanging on… Shit, just like that.”
I palmed him where he tented his shorts, hard and thick while I slipped my hand under the waistband. I peeked down as I wrapped my fingers around him, his cock growing harder in my hand as I glided it up and down.
“Stella,” he panted, grabbing the back of my head to crash his lips against mine, moaning into my mouth as Imoved faster. “I want to sink inside you so bad, I can’t even breathe.”
“You can,” I said, not surprised when he shook his head. “I’m fine?—”
“It’s not that. I’m going… Pull back,” he gritted out, his body tensing as he pushed his hands into the mattress to sit up. I wrapped my arm around his waist, shaking my head when his hooded eyes met mine.
“No.” I shook my head. “On me. Please.”
He twisted his hands in my hair, and a growl erupted from his throat as warmth spread between us and all over my bare chest. Pure exhilaration coursed through my veins, a complete satisfaction I’d never known washing over me.
This, I’d never done before. When a man had said pull back, that’s what I’d done without a second of hesitation. I’d never wanted to be covered in someone’s release and had never understood the appeal until now. My still-skeptical mind and heart yearned for all the proof I could get.
I glanced down at the mess between us. I wanted to feel it seep into my skin for another minute to make sure this was real.
It was hot, but most likely unhealthy. This wasn’t a new kink I’d discovered, but another way to seek validation, a quest I wasn’t sure I’d ever be able to satisfy.
“Look at you,” Lee whispered, his eyes still feral as they narrowed to slits. “That was so fucking hot. I think you may kill me,” he said, dropping his head to my shoulder. “So you know, I usually have a lot better control.” He lifted his head, a tired smirk curving the corner of his mouth. “I just wanted you so much I couldn’t hold back, but I promise I’m usually much better than that.”
“Better than that?” I coughed out a laugh. “Any better,you may killme,” I half joked, because it felt like the road we were on—or would be if I weren’t careful.
“We need a shower,” Lee said. “Think you can make it quick?”
“If I go in alone, sure.”
He grinned, glancing at the clock by the bed.
