She leaned in and kissed me, then turned and started the shower.
We got in together, movin’ quick, washin’ up, brushin’ our teeth, and gettin’ ourselves together without all the extra talk.
By the time we stepped out, I grabbed My’Love from the bassinet while Toni handled her bottle.
She started fussin’ the second I laid her down to change her, but I leaned in and kissed her face, talkin’ to her low.
“Aye, mama… relax…”
I changed her, got her dressed, and kept kissin’ on her until she settled down some.
Then I picked her up and walked out with Toni right behind me.
When we got to Sha’Nelle’s door, Toni knocked and handed My’Love over once she opened it.
“Call me if you need me,” Toni said.
Sha’Nelle smiled, takin’ her. “I got her.”
Once she walked off, Toni turned back to me and stepped close.
“I love you,” she said. “And I’m here for you. I’m not missin’ another day of this. We in this together.”
I looked at her for a second, then reached for her and pulled her into me.
I ain’t want her there, but deep down…I knew I needed her.
While I was drivin’ to court, Toni sat in the passenger seat.
Her fingers stayed laced with mine, and every few minutes she lifted my hand just enough to press her lips to the back of it, like she was remindin’ me she was right here with me no matter what we was walkin’ into.
I kept my eyes on the road, but I felt every lil’ thing she did. I felt the way her thumb rubbed over my skin, the way her lips lingered when she kissed my hand, and the way her presence alone took a lil’ bit of that pressure off my chest that had been sittin’ heavy for days.
Ahead of us, one of my security cars stayed a few lengths in front, and I could see the other one in the rearview, ridin’ behind us the whole way. I ain’t even feel like dealin’ with all that shit today, but with Toni bein’ with me and everything that already happened, I wasn’t takin’ no chances either.
I ain’t want her back in this courtroom shit. I meant that when I said it months ago, and I still meant it now, but at the same time I couldn’t lie to myself and act like havin’ her here wasn’t gon’ make a difference, ’cause it did. It made me calmer,made my head feel a lil’ clearer, and it kept me from driftin’ too far into the thoughts that had been eatin’ at me lately.
She lifted my hand again, bringin’ it toward her lips, but before she could kiss it, I tightened my grip just enough to stop her and pulled her hand toward me instead. I leaned over and pressed my lips to the back of her hand, holdin’ it there for a second before I looked back at the road.
“I love you,” I said low, not even thinkin’ twice about it.
She smiled, that soft smile she gets when she feel me for real, and she squeezed my hand. “I love you too.”
She leaned her head back against the seat, watchin’ me for a second before she spoke again. “Sex was real good this mornin’. I mean we always have some good ass sex, but it was real good this mornin’. My damn goodness!”
That made me smirk, my grip tightenin’ on her hand while I kept my eyes on the road.
“Hell yeah it was,” I muttered, bringin’ her hand up and pressin’ a kiss to the back of it. “You was ridin’ me crazy… shakin’ all over my damn dick, cryin’ on me… I damn near ain’t make it out that bed.”
She smiled to herself, her fingers curlin’ into mine a lil’ tighter. “That’s how you feel?” she asked, her voice soft but she was feelin’ it.
I glanced over at her for a second, lettin’ my eyes run over her before I looked back at the road.
“Hell yeah, baby. And that shit different now too,” I added low. “Ever since you had my baby… that pussy feel deeper… wetter… grown as hell.”
She let out a light breath, shiftin’ in her seat, her thighs pressin’ together. “That’s how you see me?” she asked, and you could hear it in her voice that she was in her feelins.
“Yes, baby,” I said, bringin’ her hand back up and kissin’ it again. “I love the way your body filled out after you had my baby.That ass look too good on you. Why you think I be puttin’ my dick in you every night now?”
