“Yeah!”
We were still yelling across the table, ridiculously.
“He was wasted. He said these were his picks and to fucking leave it, and then he rolled his eyes at me and said something like, ‘Elders are gone from the gate, young men from their music.’ He touched my forehead. I almost fucking slapped him.” Beckett looked at the ceiling. “The music is good though.”
He must be kidding.“Is that a biblical reference?”
“This song?” he asked, pointing up to the ceiling again.
“No, what the guy said.”
We were missing the mark. Our conversation was becoming more and more awkward by the second. The date was going downhill fast. All the smitten, shiny feelings were beginning to dull. This always happened to me.
He shrugged. “No clue, man.”
Did he just call me “man”?
The next song came on, a slower, quieter acoustic ditty sung by a familiar voice. Beckett pointed at the speakers yet again and shouted, “Fuck yeah, Tom Waits!”
It was the song “I Hope That I Don’t Fall in Love with You,” and Beckett knew every word. He serenaded me with his hand on his chest while I looked around for a hidden camera.
“Am I being Punk’d?” I asked.
“What?”
“It’s just that you’re pointing at me and saying you hope you don’t fall in love with me.”
He shook his head as if I were confusing him. “I’m singing. What’s the big deal?”
“Never mind!” I yelled. “Do you want to go to my apartment?” The music came to a screeching halt while I was mid-sentence, basically broadcasting my proposition to the entire bar.
Beckett looked affronted. First time I’d offended a guy by inviting him over.
“But the music is so good here,” he said.
A moment later, the music was back on, and I swear it was even louder than before. I nodded, although I had never been so dumbfounded in my life. “Okay.”
I finished my wine and watched Beckett continue, song after song, to flip out in excitement over the music.
One o’clock and three glasses of wine later, the jukebox was still blaring random selections, even though I hadn’t seen anyone go near it. There were four barflies on stools and Beckett and me at a table, while the rest of the place was empty. My mind was clouded by his strange behavior, and my patience was growing thinner by the second. I had had enough.
“I’m going home!” I yelled.
When I stood, he smiled. He didn’t bother standing. He held up his hand and waved.
“See ya!” he shouted over “Sad Angel” by Fleetwood Mac.
What in the hell just happened?
I was eager to get home to make sure I didn’t have a giant fleck of lettuce in my teeth. Apparently, Beckett was no longer into me—he was into classic rock. I walked two blocks and up two flights of stairs into my lonely, dark apartment. Brooklyn was still out.
We had a corner in the Mission, which was expensive, but her very progressive parents were still paying for half of it, so we split the other two grand. That meant we had the nicest rental for the smallest amount of money in the area. It was a typical San Francisco third-floor apartment with a round-corner living room. Our place would have been amazing had Brooklyn not been the biggest slob in the world.
I didn’t turn on any lights; I just stared out the window onto the street and played back the date in my mind.
Did I act too whiney about the Tracey situation? Was I eating the ribs like a barbarian? Did he get a better look at my body and notice the saddlebags?
I needed to stop obsessing, but I was still confused. Within a couple of hours, I had gone fromI think this guy is going to be my boyfriendtoI think this guy is clinically insane. I thought I knew him. I thought he liked me. I was seriously questioning my own character judgment.
