Except I’m not in San Francisco. I’m lying facedown on my bedroom floor, counting carpet fibers with my eyelashes. I have literally nothing scheduled for the foreseeable future. No dance practice. No loser sleepover party or whatever the hell it was. No job.
I’ve even studied. FOR FINALS THAT DON’T START FOR TWO MORE WEEKS. I have a research paper on natural selection due next week, and I turned it in nine days early. My teacher asked if it was a prank. I assured him it was not.
“Callie!” my mom calls from downstairs. “You’ve got company!”
“I don’t have any friends,” I call back, but my voice is muffled by the carpet.
After a moment, there’s a faint knock on the door. “Come in.”
The door creaks open.
“Whoa,” says Mitch. “Quite the situation we have here.”
I flip over onto my back.
I’m wearing a holey T-shirt, my most stretched-out sports bra, and paint-splattered jean shorts from when my mom decided she wanted to redo the bathroom but took nine shades of blue to find the perfect shade. Basically, I’ve sort of ghosted Mitch since he gave me a ride home, because I just have zero will to be around anyone right now.
“Well, I saw the national dance-team competition was on ESPN 2. You weren’t answering my texts, and I thought you could use some company.” He pulls a bag out from behind the door. “And as many obnoxiously flavored chips as I could find.”
I sit up. I still don’t really feel up for hanging out, but I’m not going to send him home and ruin the only decent friendship/unlabeled sort of romantic thing I have going. “You got any Flamin’ Hot Cheetos in there?”
“If they sell it at the Grab N’ Go, I’ve got it.”
I squint at him for a long moment. “How do you feel about hate-watching this dance competition?”
“You’re looking at a Guy Fieri hate-watching pro here.”
“Well, let’s hope we get ESPN 2.” I hop up and swipe the bag from his hand and race down the stairs as he follows me.
I stop abruptly halfway down the stairs and spin around.He stops short just a step above me, and my nose is practically pressed into his chest.
“Sorry,” I say. “I just wanted to say thanks for coming over.”
“Why be miserable alone when we could be miserable together? With chips?”
I smile.
“Baby,” Mama calls from the kitchen, “Kyla and I are running some errands. Y’all okay by yourselves?”
I look up to Mitch, our bodies pressing together with every exhale. “Yeah,” I say. “We’re good.”
Yeah, if we don’t kiss pretty soon I’m going to explode.
Which is why it makes no sense when the two of us settle on opposite sides of the couch, just about as far away from each other as we can manage. My first physical interactions with Bryce were usually lubricated with alcohol, so these skittish butterfly feelings I’m having right now are not something I know how to combat.
I flip through the channels until landing on ESPN 2, which is definitely not part of our basic cable package, but something Keith must have snuck in when my mom wasn’t paying attention.
I dig through the bag of chips and pull out some pineapple-and-ham-pizza flavored ones. “I want this to be my job,” I say. “Coming up with ridiculous chip flavors.”
Mitch laughs. “I can’t believe someone gets paid to do that. I would want, like, holiday-themed chips. Like Thanksgiving dinner or hot dog with all the fixings for the Fourth of July.”
“Oooh! Or like pumpkin-spice chips for Halloween.”
“Oh, gross. You lost me there!”
I toss the Grab N’ Go bag to him. “You mean you can fathom Thanksgiving dinner chips, but pumpkin is just too much of a stretch of the imagination?”
He shrugs. “It doesn’t suit my palate.”
