I couldn’t stay. Not with what I had lost. Not with my blind, naive ignorance and what it had cost me.
I had run. And I never looked back.
“Which begs the question: why are you here?” I mutter to myself, pushing away from the window.
Exhaustion presses down on me. Part of it is from the exhaustion of being truly and well fucked, part of it is the tortured memories, and part of it is jet lag.
I close the curtains, then turn off the lights in the living area of the hotel suite and walk into the bedroom. I keep the lights off and head straight for the bed. Removing my overcoat, I undo the tie of my dress around my neck, let it slip off, and remove my shoes. I don’t wash my face or shower off the scent of sex.
Instead, I climb into the bed and burrow under the covers, trying not to think about tonight, the unbelievable pleasure I experienced at Hedon, and my wolf.
My wolf.
The mysterious man in a wolf mask who dominated me in ways I only dared to dream about. Who peeled back the edge of the curtains into the tantalizing world of kinky sex that I have tried to pretend I wasn’t interested in for years. Tried to pretend that part of me, and those secret desires, didn’t exist.
I finally had the courage to go to a place like Hedon to explore if this was truly something I was interested in. And seeing thehedonisticthings happening around me had been thrilling and deeply arousing.
But a part of me still told me that I was a wanton slut for wanting the things I did. That it was wrong; that I was wrong. My wolf assuring me that what I wanted or thought I might want to try wasn’t wrong or bad had quieted that part of me.
He was a stranger to me, yet I had instantly trusted him. There was an instant connection.
And my god, the reaction my body had to his touch...the way it reacted so intensely and instantly.
My body is thrumming right now, just remembering my evening with him. And I squeeze my eyes shut, trying to block any further memories.
But just like you can’t unsee what’s already seen, what’s done is done.
My hand slips between my thighs, and I slip a finger into my wet core, already knowing the release I give myself won’t be anything close to what he gave me. Already knowing that Ican’tsee him again, not with his link to the Havoc Guardians.
But still, already knowing all that, I’m not strong enough to resist making myself come to the thoughts of him, my wolf.
Or to stop craving the kinky, filthy things I want him to do to me in the future.
Chapter 11
Army
I’mawildanimalon the hunt. My siren ran. She escaped me…but not for long.
I storm into the office, the door banging open, and Riveria jumps in the chair where she sits with her legs wide open, and her wife Belinda and another woman are taking turns eating her out.
“What the hell, Army?” She pushes the women aside and pulls down her dress while she stands.
Goddammit. Belinda knows who I am in relation to this club, but the other woman doesn’t. I fist my hands and try my damnedest to come across as calm.
“I need to speak to you in private, Riveria.”
Belinda stands and helps the other woman to her feet. “Let’s give them some privacy, honey. We’ll go into one of the voyeurer rooms, and you can watch the show while I eat your pussy until Riveria is finished dealing with her business.”
The two women leave, and I stare after them as Belinda closes the door. “How are you okay with that?” I turn to Riveria, who crosses her arms over her chest.
“Judge much, asshole?”
I shake my head. “No, I never meant it in a judging way. I’m genuinely curious.”
This thought has never crossed my mind before because I’ve never been possessive over any of my partners. Until tonight. Because the thought of sharing my siren with another…or even having anyone see her while I do the filthy things I’m craving to do to her makes me want to gouge out the eyes of everyone around me.
“Belinda and I love each other.” Riveria relaxes and shrugs. “We also love involving other people in our sex lives. It works.” She adjusts her dress again. “Now, what the hell do you want, because with the orgasm denial you just gave me, I’m either going to need a raise or to be joining my wife and girlfriend in less than two minutes.”
