David glowered at her. “I seem to remember that a ride in the park was on the list of things you told me a gentleman asks a lady to do when they are courting.”
Annabelle’s nostrils flared. She wanted to stamp her foot. The man was being impossible. “It’s merely a ride in the park, David. Besides, I fail to see whyyouwould care what I do. You accused me of being jealous once. But it sounds as ifyou’rethe jealous one. I’ve found that men always want what they can’t have. Isthatthe problem, Captain Ellsworth?” She crossed her arms over her chest this time and glared back at him. There. That should silence him on the subject.
“Certainly not,” he nearly growled as he ran a hand through his dark hair and paced away from her. “And I completely understand that a ride in the park is nothing more than a ride in the park. In fact,”—he turned back to face her—“I’ve asked Lady Elspeth to accompany me on just such a ride this afternoon as well.”
Chapter Twenty-One
David did his best to concentrate on the story Lady Elspeth was telling him as they rode together atop his curricle through the park that afternoon. Her mother was ensconced in the back acting as chaperone, and Lady Elspeth had just finished a story involving her younger sister and a hair ribbon they both admired. He’d never been much for pleasantries and for some reason he found himself wholly unable to concentrate on her tale. Hopefully, she wouldn’t ask him any questions. What bothered him the most, however, wasn’t the story or even the chill in the air and the gray sky that hung over the city like a dirty handkerchief. No. What was bothering him this afternoon was his lesson with Annabelle this morning and his ridiculous behavior during it.
He’d acted like a complete arse and had no excuse for it. What in the bloody hell was wrong with him? Why did he care if she went riding in the park with Lord Murdock? Why did he care if she’d danced with Murdocktwicethe night before? What did he care that Murdock had apparently hand-delivered two dozen roses and some sweets to her house that morning? Why did he care about any of it?
David had tried to tell himself that those things bothered him only because Annabelle had been so adamant about not wanting to be courted by anyone. She was being hypocritical. But the more he thought about it, the more he realized that reasoning made no sense. It wasn’t up to him to monitor her actions and compare them to her words. Perhaps she’d changed her mind. That was none of his business, exactly as she’d told him. Even if she couldn’t or wouldn’t admit that she was allowing Lord Murdock to court her, what business was it of David’s? She was his sister’s future sister-in-law. She was his tutor in the ways of Society. Perhaps she was his friend, but she didn’t owe him anything, including explanations for her actions or their lack of continuity. She was a grown woman who had handled her own affairs all these years. She certainly didn’t need David to stroll into town and begin taking her to task for her decisions.
So, why had he behaved like such an unmitigated arse? Why was he acting as if she owed him an explanation?Why did he care what she did when she wasn’t with him? And why in the bloody hell had he gone and kissed her of all things? All it had done was make their interactions tense and uncomfortable. These questions had rolled around and around in his brain, making him half-mad all day.
Fine. He was smitten with Annabelle. He wasn’t proud of it, and he wasn’t particularly pleased to know it. It made him predictable, didn’t it? Now he was just one of themanygentlemen in London who fancied Annabelle Bellham. What, was he going to begin sending her flowers, too? Asking her to go for rides in the park? There was no way she would agree to such liberties. The lady had made it quite clear she wasn’t interested in marriage. And now here he was, smitten with her. Another one in a long line of sad sops who could claim the same fate: wanting a woman they couldn’t have.
She’d accused him of being jealous and he’d denied it. But now he realized she was right. He was jealous. Blindly, unreasonably jealous of Murdock, of all blasted people. What could she possibly see in that man? He was a pompous prick.
She’d also accused David of only being interested in her because men wanted what they couldn’t have. Could that possibly be true? Hadn’t Annabelle herself explained to him that all the men who were trying to court her only wanted her because she was the equivalent of prize hog to be won? Was David that predictable and ignoble? Was he truly that obvious and insipid? No. He wasn’t, and he hated that she’d lumped him in with the rest of the foolish men of theton. The type of men who placed bets on women’s marriage prospects. He wasn’t one of them, and he never would be.
But he mustn’t allow his baser instincts, specifically his inconvenient jealously, to cost him a friendship with Annabelle. And that is exactly what would happen if he were to be idiotic enough to tell her he was smitten with her, or to attempt to court her or win her in any way. Annabelle was clever. She would detect his game immediately. She would consider him to be in the same exact group as all the other fools who sent her flowers and or wrote her poems. Not that he was a poem writer. Certainly not. But flowers were bad enough, and he’d actually contemplated sending some!
Flowers would be a catastrophe. He wouldnotsend flowers. He would not ask her to go riding in the park. And he certainly wouldn’t attempt to kiss her again. And if she wanted to go driving around with Lord Murdock and accept his two dozen roses (the amount was pretentious if you asked David) then that was her affair and none of his. The woman had introduced him to other young ladies, for God’s sake. If there was a clearer sign thatshewasn’t interested in him, what could it possibly be? No. He needed to push any thoughts about Annabelle’s sweet lips, her silken hair, her soft skin… Damn it. He needed to focus his attention back on a woman who actually might be interested in his suit. Specifically, Lady Elspeth, who was even now prattling on in the seat next to him.
“It’s really too bad about the weather today,” he heard her say when he began listening again.
Thank heavens. Weather. Something he could respond to. He forced a smile to his lips. Lady Elspeth deserved better from him. She’d gamely agreed to go riding in the park when he’d suddenly arrived at her home earlier this afternoon and asked. Of course, he’d lied to Annabelle about having already made the plans. He didn’t want to seem like a complete horse’s arse. He shook his head and concentrated on what Lady Elspeth had said. “Yes, it is too bad. Hopefully, the rain will stay off until we return home.”
“I hope so too,” Lady Elspeth replied. “Oh, you know where we should go next? Down to the trail near the duck pond. That’s where most couples go to be seen together in the park.”
Normally, David wouldn’t give a toss where most couples went to beseen together, but his next thought was: if most couples went there, it stood to reason that Annabelle and Murdock might be there. And although David was steadfast in his commitment to not attempt to court her, he had to admit he was somewhat curious about her ride with Murdock. Would she be happy and laughing or would she be silent and frowning, wishing the ride was over? Was she enjoying herself, or miserable?
There was only one way to find out.
“Then by all means,” he said, lifting the reins and giving Lady Elspeth a wide smile. “Let’s be seen.”
He shook out the reins and called to the horses to step lively.
Despite the wind that was picking up when the curricle pulled up to the trail near the duck pond, there were at least a dozen other small conveyances there. He’d followed Elspeth’s expert directions and they’d made it there in only a few minutes’ time.
Elspeth’s gaze was already taking in every couple in the area. “Look.” She pointed. “Over there. I do believe that’s Lord Murdock’s carriage.”
David couldn’t have been more pleased with her random observation if he’d asked her himself. “Really?” He tried to sound nonchalant. “The one with the two lions on the door?”
“Yes, that’s the one. We’ll have to greet them when they come around. Drive in the circle. We’ll pass them eventually.”
“Very well,” David replied, still trying to sound nonchalant. Had he mentioned to Lady Elspeth that Annabelle was riding with Lord Murdock today? Or did she guess? He supposed it didn’t matter.
David let his two matched black stallions prance over toward the line of carriages. Once the curricle fell into step with the other conveyances, they proceeded quite slowly. The long line of vehicles moved at the pace of an injured, recalcitrant donkey around a trail that was shaped like a large oblong. It was arranged so that at some point each coach would pass the others as they made the rounds. Some of the carriages would stop the progression to speak to the occupants of the carriage they were passing. The arrangement made the whole affair that much more excruciatingly slow.
David kept his eye on Murdock’s black coach. It was nearly a halfway away from them. Given the current angle, David couldn’t see either Murdock or Annabelle. While Lady Elspeth and her mother called out greetings to the occupants of the other coaches as they moved along the trail, David did his best to smile cordially and tip his hat to each person who passed by.
“So, this is where everyone comes to be seen? Why is that?” he finally asked.
Lady Elspeth warmed to the topic immediately, clasping her gloved hands together in her lap and smiling widely. “Rotten Row istheplace to be seen, of course, but this is also a popular path.”
“To be seen by whom?” David asked.
