“You’re such a pig,” I snapped, but there was no anger behind it. How could there be? All I’d been thinking about since he’d dived into the water was kissing him, holding him,wanting him.Wondering how I’d never realized how I felt before, and hoping that he felt just a fraction of what I felt for him.
Being with Nikolai was completely insane, but for the first time in a long time I felt completely sane.
“Yeah, and you fucking love it,” he said and grinned down at me. He swiped his wet hair back from his forehead, slicking it back as he spoke. I stared up at him, all wide-eyed and breathless and feeling pathetic but content with those feelings, and his smile slipped. He perched next to me on the boat, the cool chill of his body mingling with my heat soaked one.
Something had been growing between us for weeks, no months…hell, maybe years, but I’d been blind and stupid and selfish and I’d ignored it, but not anymore. Nikolai took a steadying breath and the thing that had been burning between us, that had begun to bubble over as we’d climbed aboard theOcean Darling,finally burst its banks.
“I do,” I admitted sliding off my sunglasses so I could look into his eyes and search his face properly. “I do love it, Nik. I love it when you taunt me and tease me. I love that you drive me insane, and oh my God you really do drive me insane at times,” I laughed, and his mouth twitched in what could have been a smile too. “I love it when you look at me,just like this, like I’m the only one here.” I swallowed, my chest heaving as I admitted my feelings for him.
I waited for him to admit his feelings to me, hoping that he felt the same way. But this was Nikolai. Fucking Nikolai. King slut who had driven me insane for the past 18 years. My brother's best friend who was the forbidden fruit. Yes, this was Nikolai, the devil in a three thousand-dollar-suit, an asshole, a bastard, and the most handsome man I’d ever seen.
Nikolai reached out and wrapped a hand around the side of my cheek, tilting my face up to him, his muscles twitching.
“In all fairness, you are the only one here.” The words were, like always, a tease. But, unlike other times, his voice was serious, and his eyes held heavier things.
“Nik,” I sighed out sadly, suddenly wondering if I’d been wrong. Wondering if he didn’t feel the same way I did.But how could that be? How could the fire burning in my heart not at least smolder inside his own?
“There’s no coming back from this,” he finally admitted, his voice thick with lust, and I nodded in agreement, my heart jumping to life. “If we do this then everything changes, but it also has to stay the same. I’m not the one for you, Katya, I can’t be.”
I nodded again, knowing everything he was saying was right but also knowing I didn’t care. My tongue darted out to wet my lips as I leaned my face into his palm. “I know.”
“You’re going to go off and marry a rich asshole like Viktor and have his babies,” he said, tasting the vileness of those words on his tongue.
“And you’re going to marry some boring Russian woman who won’t know how to satisfy you properly,” I replied with an arch of my eyebrow.
“I’m not good enough for you, Katya,” he growled, like he was furious with himself. “I’m a killer with no mercy.”
I pressed my face into his palm. “I don’t care.”
Nik stared at me a beat longer before we both succumbed to the feelings inside of us, and then he leaned down and pressed his lips to mine. I opened to him and our tongues moved together in perfect synchronicity. And the more we kissed, the more we wanted it. Our kisses started out tentative and almost gentle, but it wasn’t long before our teeth and tongues were clashing in a frenzy as we both let go of everything that we had been holding back. Nik’s kisses were brutal and bruising and I moaned into his mouth, wanting more.
Nik climbed on top of me, his wet body covering mine. My nipples pebbled beneath the thin material of my bikini as cold water dripped from him on to me. I felt his dick harden as his hand found my hip and slid up my side, caressing my body from breast to hip and back again. I was breathless and I wanted more of him.Needed more of him.
“Fuck,” Nik grumbled into my mouth as his fingers found the straps of my bikini top and slid them down my shoulders. My breasts slipped free and he stopped kissing me to cover one of my heavy breasts with his warm mouth. Sucking my swollen nipple in and circling it with his tongue as I arched my back.
“Oh God, Nik,” I sighed into the air, my greedy hands on his back.
He released my nipple with a pop and blew on it, hardening it further and I groaned as pleasure surged through me. Nik moved down my body, leaving damp kisses in his wake until he reached my bikini bottoms. His fingers hooked under the thin material, readying to pull them down. He glanced up my body, searching for my approval. His gaze found mine and I nodded as I lifted my ass so he could pull them down my thighs. He tossed them to one side and seemed frozen for a moment as the whole of me was revealed. He’d seen parts of me over the years, but there were always those hidden pieces, bits of my body denied to him.
Nikolai stared down at me; his eyes hooded as he dragged his hands through his hair. “Christ,” he rumbled, and I grinned up at him. He gripped my thighs and spread my legs wide before deftly burying his face between my legs like a starved man.
I called out as a rumble left his chest and his tongue slid along my seam, splitting me open. He sucked on my clit, before pressing a thick finger at my entrance and pushing inside of me. My hands found their way to his hair as he sucked and licked and slid a second finger inside of me, stretching me wider, preparing my body for him.
This was wrong.
This was against our families’ wishes.
Alex would never understand--he’d fucking hate me for this, but he’d hate Nikolai even more. But I knew we couldn’t stop now. I wanted Nikolai like my life depended upon it. I wanted him owning me, claiming me, fucking me and devouring me, and be damned the consequences.
He hooked his finger inside me, dragging more pleasure from my body, and then his face was against my most intimate parts too, tongue inexplicably reaching farther than his finger had. He groaned against me, tasting the tang of my juices on his tongue. Nikolai lapped and sucked and fucked me with his mouth and fingers.
“Nik, oh God, Nik...I can’t...” I called out and I looked down my body, our eyes connecting as his mouth devoured my pussy. “Fuck me, Nikolai, please, fuck me now,” I panted, breathless.
Yes, there was no coming back from this, and that was okay, because I realized that I didn’t want to come back from this. Fucking Nikolai would change everything, in the best possible way.
Chapter Twenty-One
Nikolai
