"There’s a huge variety of things. Plugs, dildos, ball chains in different designs, for example. You're curious, aren't you?"
I nod. "I could never imagine that anyone could seriously like this until yesterday, when I saw how Adrien felt, how he... how he enjoyed every thrust. There was no pain on his face, just happiness and ecstasy. And I wonder... if I could have that too..."
"Talk to him and find a way together. Then it will work."
***
"I've thought of something..." We're sitting on the sofa making out, but I can't hold on any longer. I've been tossing the thought back and forth in my head for a week. I want this. I at least want to try it. If it doesn't work for me, that's okay, but I have to give it a try.
"I... uh... I was thinking... so... uhm…" Confident much, Philipp, great move. The stammering is hardly embarrassing, not at all. "I want you to... with your finger. I want to know what it feels like. But... I'm afraid that it will hurt and that it will trigger me."
Adrien looks at me with wide gray eyes. The gray rain clouds in his gaze are stormier than they have been for a long time. He is struggling with himself. He is torn between"Oh my God, yes! This is so hot!"and"No, there's no way I can take the risk and do this."Suddenly he stands up. "Do you trust me?"
"Yes." My answer rushing out without hesitation.
"I have an idea, but I don't want to tell you about it yet. You just have to promise that you'll let me know immediately if anything is unpleasant. And now onto the bed. On your back, briefs off. Close your eyes. I'll be right with you." His tone is not dominant, but playful and light. Excited. Thrilled. And I'm more than hard as I lie naked and with my eyes closed on his bed, waiting for him.
"I'm back." His lips touch mine. At first he’s kissing my lips, then my entire upper body, until he eventually reaches my cock. Oh shit, I love it when he plays with my glans. I wait for him to ask me to turn around. That's what I'm most afraid of. But it doesn't happen. "Bend your legs, please."
Okay. Better than on all fours, much better, but I still feel very... naked, open, vulnerable. Everything is full on display for him. Then there's his first touch, gentle, tender, as always when he touches me. Never too much. It's strange at first, but not bad.
"Okay?"
"Mhm." I nod quickly. Adrien increases the pressure a little, but it's still good. No pain. On the contrary, it feels good and I realize I want more. My cock feels the same way and I'm almost disappointed when he takes his finger away.
I hear the click of the lube and I tense up as if on cue. Fuck, I thought I was getting used to the sound in a positive context. "I'm not doing anything you don't want. We don't have to go on, but if we do, I need you to relax. I don't want it to hurt you." I feel his finger on my hole again. He massages with pressure, butnever enough to break the barrier that this little ring of muscle is still very vehemently forming.
And then I feel something else. I don't understand what it is and I don't understand what is happening. I feel something small and soft penetrating me, but I only feel the material. No pressure, no sting, no pain. And then I feel it inside me. Fuck. It feels deep. Oh my God.
My head falls backwards. Whatever it is, it moves back and forth, in and out. The feeling is light, subtle, but definitely there. Like someone is stroking my inner upper arm with a feather. Like I'm being tickled from the inside. I hate being tickled, but those nerve endings inside me seem to have a completely different attitude. They set off a thousand little fireworks and I feel like I'm going to explode.
"Fuuuuck, oh my God! What are you doing? What is that? Don't stop! Feels so good. I... oh my god..." I babble some incoherent crap as Adrien keeps moving this magic thing inside me. When he grabs my cock, I finally take off into other spheres.
"Ah, yes... fuck, yes... don't stop... don't ever stop... Ahh!" Endorphins flood my body in a wave that breaks over me with full force as I come. I feel like I'm floating two feet above myself. Light as a feather.
Loud laughter and tears both find their way to the surface, so many feelings at once. When I open my eyes, Adrien is kneeling between my legs, grinning knowingly. "Good, right?"
I exhale loudly. "So good. What was that?"
"That's what you want to know now, huh?"
I look around searchingly, but I can't see anything.
"It's still inside you. I didn't want to spoil the fun of pulling out." My ass tightens all by itself at the thought, but I can't feel anything... until Adrien pulls gently, very slowly. There it is again, that feather-light tickle that makes my skin tingle all over my body. Fuck.
I can feel a little nub slipping out of my muscle, but still, no pain. "Here..." Embarrassed and a little unsure, Adrien holds out the item that just rocketed me into weightlessness. I stare back and forth between him and his hand in disbelief. If I hadn't just experienced it myself, I would have never thought that such a small item could have such an effect. "I wanted something you might feel a little, but with the guarantee it wouldn't hurt. I didn't expect it to go off like that though." Grinning, Adrien shrugs his shoulders, still holding a rather long cotton swab.
"Is that from an old COVID test? It is, isn't it? Oh my God. That's brilliant." We both burst out laughing and I pull my boyfriend to my chest. Everything is sticky, but we both don't care right now. “Thank you."
"For what?"
"For your crazy ideas, for never losing sight of how I'm doing and what I need. And thank you for never denying me anything, even if you're just as scared as I am that it might go wrong. Thank you for always letting me have the final decision about what happens to my body."
"You don't have to thank me for that. That should go without saying and I'm still angry that you had to experience it differently. And with that I'm all the more grateful that you decided to trust me. And that you are so brave with me. I love that you are so brave with me. I love you!"
"And I love you, Adrien."
Chapter 50
