I watched the light strengthen, watched the shadows retreat from her face, and the dread coiled tighter in my gut with every passing minute.The cabin smelled of dust and old wood and the faint musty odor of disuse, none of it strong enough to mask her scent or the cold fear building in my chest.
I had faced down pack elders and Bratva rivals and men who wanted me dead.I had taken beatings that would have killed a lesser wolf.I had watched my own father’s blood pool on the kitchen floor while my mother’s body cooled beside him, had hidden in that closet for three days with the copper stench of death seeping under the door.
None of that compared to the terror of what I was about to do.
Tell her,my wolf urged.Truth.Then mate forgives.Then we keep her.
If only it were that simple.
The Pakhan’s ultimatum.Why I married her.All of it.The words I had carried for months, the secret that had shaped every decision I made since that night in Max’s compound.She deserved the truth.I knew that with bone-deep certainty.She had survived her psychotic half-brother’s confession, had processed the revelation that her father had abandoned another child to create the monster who stalked her.She was stronger than I had ever given her credit for.
But she might not be strong enough to forgive this.
I had lied to her for months.I had made choices about her life without consulting her, without giving her the information she needed to choose for herself.I had told myself it was protection.The truth was simpler and uglier.
It was control.
And now I had to confess that to the woman I loved, while she lay warm and trusting in my arms, while her scent filled my lungs and her heartbeat echoed through my chest.
Lena stirred against me, her breathing pattern changing as consciousness crept back.Her scent shifted from the soft sweetness of sleep to something sharper, more alert.Apples and cream, always, but now layered with the salt of tears and the metallic scent of healing wounds and the new undertone that made my wolf preen.
My scent.My claim.She smelled like mine now, and the possessive satisfaction of that warred with the terror of what I was about to risk losing.
Her eyes opened, finding mine immediately.No confusion this time, no disoriented blinking.She knew exactly where she was.Exactly what this morning meant.
“You’re awake,” she said.Not a question.
“I did not sleep.”
Her gaze searched my face.Through the bond, her emotions shifted, the drowsy warmth of waking beside me giving way to the lingering exhaustion, the ache of her bandaged wrists, and underneath it all, a quiet determination that made my chest tight.
She was not going to let me delay any longer.
“Tell me.”She pushed herself up to sitting, wincing slightly as the movement pulled at her injuries.I reached for her automatically, my hands finding her waist to support her, and she let me.Let me touch her, steady her, even knowing that what I was about to say might make her never want my hands on her again.“You promised.No more secrets.”
“No more secrets,” I agreed.The words tasted like ash on my tongue.
I sat up beside her, the thin blanket pooling around our waists.The safe house bedroom was spartan, nothing like the luxury of my manor or her hotel penthouse.Just a bed, a nightstand with a lamp that probably did not work, curtains that had been white decades ago.A place for hiding.For surviving.
I supposed it was fitting.I had been hiding from this moment for months.
“In our world, attachments are dangerous.”I forced myself to hold her gaze, to not look away from the blue eyes that had haunted me since the moment I first scented her in that hotel lobby.“They make wolves vulnerable.They create leverage for enemies to exploit.And a Vor with a human weakness is a liability the pack cannot afford.”
Lena’s expression did not change, but her attention sharpened through the bond like a blade being drawn.She was listening.Processing.Waiting.
“What did the Pakhan do?”
“He gave me a choice.”The words stuck in my throat.I had said them to myself a thousand times, had replayed that conversation in my memory until every syllable was burned into my brain.But saying them to her, to the woman those words had condemned and saved in equal measure, was different.
I made myself continue.
“Kill you.”The words fell between us like stones dropped into still water.“Kill you to eliminate the distraction.Or marry you to bring you under pack protection and control.There is no third option.”
Her face went pale.Through the bond, shock hit her like ice water, cold and sharp and spreading.Horror at the casual brutality of it.Fear, retroactive, for a death she had never known was on the table.
“Those were the only options,” I continued, because if I stopped now I would never be able to start again.“There was no walking away, no claiming it was nothing.The Pakhan knew.And wolves do not let vulnerabilities go unaddressed.”
“He wanted you to kill me.”Her voice was barely a whisper, her scent spiking with something sharp and acrid.Fear.Old fear, dredged up from the place where she had buried it.
