Page 215 of Never Not Been You


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I groan, pulling down the last two boxes in my tiny storage closet. It can only be so many places. It’s not like I have a ton of space to hide things.

I tear open the box.

Dammit.

It’s not even clothes.

I start to fold it back together, then pause when I spot my middle school yearbook.

I bend the cardboard open and plop down on the floor in front of it.

I pull the yearbook out with a smile, more than ready to take a trip down memory lane. This is the one box of old stuff I kept from my childhood.

I rummage through it. Polaroids. Yearbooks. Old letters from friends… and Matt.

Yeah. I definitely have to read some.

I tap my camera and take a picture of all the notes folded into weird little shapes, some with pull tabs and others tucked into themselves, and send it to Matt.

Look what I just found.

He’s in Chicago for a private event at the nightclub he co-owns with Leo. He flew in yesterday and is coming home late tonight. He wanted to fly out a day early to take Cole to dinner, but Cece said they already had plans.

He responds a minute later.

Matt

Holy shit. I can’t believe you have those.

What do they say? Should I be embarrassed?

I pick one up. My name is scrawled across the front in his shitty handwriting, simple and all caps. It’s folded into itself, and I already know there’s no way in hell I’ll be able to refold it once I untangle it.

I open it.

Babe,

God. He was already calling me babe back then?

I can’t stop thinking about second base. My parents are gone tonight. You should come over.

-Matt

I let out a laugh. “Oh my God,” I say aloud. I have no idea when this was written, but we were definitely way too young to be going to second base.

I snap a picture and send it to Matt.

Why am I not surprised?

Matt

I knew what I wanted even back then.

I still think about that day. I’ll never forget it.

I honestly can’t even remember the first time we did that. It’s all a blur.

Matt