“I need to be closer to you,” he moaned, sitting and moving us so his back was against the headboard.
He was even deeper now and my eyes watered from this new angle, but it was soon forgotten as Jax’s hands cupped my breasts and his lips found mine. Our hips paused while our mouths took centre stage, kissing until my body hummed.
When he rocked up into me, I let out a whimper. When his mouth met my nipple, pleasure tightened in my core. When he lifted his face, he wore an expression that I’d never seen before. Then he cupped my cheek with his giant hand and whispered that he loved me and I came so hard I couldn’t breathe. The room spun around me, Jax’s orgasm following, pushing him into the deep abyss I was tumbling into.
“That was perfect,” he panted breathlessly into my neck. My boneless body slumped against his chest, and I hummed out my agreement.
“Hey.”
I used my last bit of energy to lift my face to look at him. “I meant what I said. I love you. I’m in love with you. I want you to know that.”
Warmth flooded my body, and I let out my truth. “I love you too.”
Jax’s eyes searched mine, and I wasn’t sure if he was waiting for me to say something else or was wondering if I was telling the truth. I leaned in and let my exhausted body melt into his as my mouth dusted his ear. “I mean it, Jax. I love you. Move in here. Well, don’t move out is probably a better way of saying it.”
Jax stroked my hair as exhaustion took over and I let sleep steal me from his arms.
As I drifted off I could have sworn I heard him say he was sorry, his voice sounding broken, but I guessed I was dreaming.
When I woke in the morning, Jax and all his things were gone.
Chapter 31
Helen
“Oh, Helen. Come here.” Lizzy stood on my doorstep and flung her arms around me as I burst into tears for the hundredth time today.
When I woke up the bed was empty, which wasn’t unusual. Jax was a morning person. I was not. And after our Olympic sex session last night, I thought I’d find him making breakfast, but when he wasn’t in the kitchen, I presumed he’d gone for a run.
When he wasn’t home by eleven, I got worried and tried his mobile, but my call wouldn’t connect and my texts failed to send. Confused, I went to check his room and found his stuff gone and a note on the bed.
Helen,
By now, you’ll know the truth. I’m sorry I couldn’t explain. I just don’t know how to find the words to give you the answers you need. Just know that I really do love you, but half a man is useless. You deserve so much more. I’ve moved out because I don’t want to make things awkward for you and I don’t want to see the pity in your eyes when you look at me.
I’m so sorry.
Jax
I’d FaceTimed Vee, Lizzy, and Becks, who all answered excitedly, wanting to hear the details of what happened after I left the party last night, but when I couldn’t speak because I was crying so much, they all promised to come straight over before hanging up.
Lizzy was the first to arrive. She sat me at the dining table and went to make some tea just as Becks and Vee burst into the house.
“What happened?” Vee yelled. “Who do I need to kill? The wife said she’d be our witness and claim we were at our house all day, so we won’t go to prison.”
I pushed the note across the table, Vee reading it as she slipped off her leather jacket.
“That makes no sense. He loves you, so he left, and why would you look at him with pity?” I took a tissue from the box Becks had handed me and shrugged. “Okay, start from the beginning.”
I blew my nose and told them everything I could think of, and for an hour, my friends listened intently.
“So he let you go down on him last night, then you had sex and then he told you he loved you?” Becks recapped.
“Yeap.”
“And there was nothing that happened… I mean, nothing else.”
I pressed my hand to my stomach because I could still feel the effects of riding him. “I mean, he came inside me. We’ve never done that before.”
