“So what?” he snapped, rolling onto his back quickly to face me. “I couldn’t just go around hooking up with people. How would I know if they were going to tell people, or that I could trust them? That’s why I joined the club. Even then I found I couldn’t trust people to keep the damn blindfold on until you.”
My mind was swirling, like I’d taken a hit of a powerful drug and was struggling to find my bearings. “I was your first for that too?”
“Yes, Benny,” he snapped again. “You were. You were my first for everything.”
“Everythin’?” My voice croaked. “Your first blow job?”
“Yes.”
“Hand job?”
“Yes.”
“Kiss?”
“Everything, Benny!”
I stood up, too many emotions rushing at me at once. I could barely process this information, the knowledge that I was thefirst,theonlyperson to touch him in every way we’d already experienced together months ago, and now he was giving me this as well?
It was a miracle I didn’t come in my pants at just the idea of that. I wanted to scream and cry with joy. I also wanted to claim the absolute fuck out of him, and if I didn’t calm myself down, I was going to give him far more than he’d be ready for on his first time.
He was glaring at me now, and I was trying to contain all the emotions threatening to spill out of me and make me look like an absolute fool for him.
“So what? Do you have a problem with it?”
“No. No of course not, my love. I am tryin’ very hard to be cool and normal about this and not just claim the fuck out of you right now.”
His glare softened, his lips curling into a half smile. Slowly, he spread his legs open for me, and my eyes locked onto his slick, stretched hole. A hole no one else had ever been inside of before.
My heart was doing its best to burst right out of my chest and leap onto him before I could. My dick very much trying to do the same.
I bit my lip hard to keep myself under control, but that was a losing battle as Harper’s hand traveled down his body slowly, sensually, until he pressed three fingers back into his hole.
“Either you keep going, or you hand me a dildo from that drawer and I’ll fuck myself.”
The last of my restraint snapped. I was on him. My mouth devoured his, deep and messy.
“I got tested after my ex,” I panted between kisses. “Two years ago. I haven’t been with anyone else until you.”
He gripped my ass so roughly it was more pain than pleasure.
“I hate your ex,” he growled.
“Why?”
“I hate everyone who got to have you before me.”
I smiled. “I think I like you jealous.”
“And I think you’re talking when you should be fucking.”
I wanted to, so badly. I groaned. “But it’s your first time. It needs to be special. Just… let me go get some stuff first. So I can make it everythin’ you deserve.”
Harper snarled at me. “Like what? Candles and rose petals? I don’t need anything, Benny, except for you to fuck me. Right the fuck now.”
I bit my lip because yes, that was exactly what I’d been planning to go and get for him.
“Lie down,” he ordered.
