Everyone had been reminded how touchable we were.That was the downside of loving, of caring. It meant that when shit went south and something happened to those you cared for, you were left feeling like we all did: useless as fuck.
Business carried on as usual. The Hounds even had a vote on what action was best to take regarding Sloane’s mystery attacker. Kenny wanted to storm the school and smash every man capable of getting a raging erection up against a wall, grab their balls, and twist them until they talked. We all voted against him on that, which led to him sulking for three days and smashing the crap out of the equipment in the training room.
With our attention needed to run the club, the pawnshop, and the repo business, Ayda demanded that we stopped calling in on her shifts at Rusty’s, instead willing us to head to football training to watch over Tate if we got the spare time. It would mean we could kill two birds with one stone. Make sure her brother was safe and keep our eyes on Sloane at cheerleading practice, since she was refusing to quit that shit, much to her father’s despair.
“See that as a good thing, Howard,” I encouraged him. “It means the attacker is probably someone she didn’t even know. There’s no way she’d go back to the same place she got hurt if the same guy was gonna be there to remind her of what happened.”
He’d looked at me skeptically, and then he’d lowered his chin back to his chest and stalked off to the bar to grab a double whiskey after his shift.
I was trying Ayda’s tactic of positive thoughts leading to a positive life, but I had to admit, it didn’t come naturally to me. The longer I tried to suppress the raging need to hurt someone, something, the more I could feel it bubbling away inthe pit of my stomach in the middle of the night. The need for revenge would whisper to me like an old friend.Come back to me, Drew. Be who you used to be. React first and think later. Put the pressure on. Weed the scum out. Make the whole of Babylon fear hurting anyone you’ve come to care about.
I almost gave in a few times, too. But then Ayda would stir in her sleep, wrap her leg tighter around mine and sigh against my chest, as though she could hear that devil on my shoulder and she’d moved to remind it she was stronger than any temptation the world had to offer.
By day eight post-Sloane-attack, I was pacing, and doing my damn best to hide it.
I had no idea if Sloane or Tate were even due to practice that day, but I found myself driving around the high school a few times while Ayda was busy working a shift at Rusty’s. Just being close by had all my senses tingling, like something inside of me could sense there was something bigger going on here… something that was right in front of my eyes. So close, too close, I couldn’t focus to see it clearly.
I’d chosen to take the van out that morning. People didn’t tend to crane their necks to look at me tearing down the roads when I was in the van as opposed to theHarley. After several pointless trips around Babylon, I parked up behind the school on the back road where few cars went because it was a dead end that held all the school’s commercial trash compactors.
The football field was around the corner, and all I could feel in my gut was this pull for me to go to it. To see it, even if it sat empty and unresponsive, offering me no more vibes and nothing but a half decent view.
I shuffled around in the driver’s seat for quite some time, eventually pulling out the cell from inside my cut and staringdown at it in my hands. I turned it over a few times, trying to figure out what to do, and before I could give it too much thought, I had Sutton’s name up on the screen and I was hitting call.
“Tucker,” he answered with no emotion.
“Chief, just calling to see what’s going on in the life of crime today.” I tried to smile as I rested my arm on the door and pressed the phone harder to my ear.
“It’s quiet. Too quiet.”
“We’re working on making those cells a little more crowded for you.”
“Ain’t your job, Tucker.”
“I know.” I sighed. “But you chose to befriend a bunch of outlaws. It’s not my fault you can’t choose better acquaintances.”
“I would say I wished I’d stayed away from the warehouse that night, but I’m pretty sure you’d be dead if I had, and as unhappy as I am right now, I can’t bring myself to wish for that.”
“That’s what I call progress,” I said through a weak smile.
“I call it regression, but whatever.” I heard the chief take a slurp of his drink—no doubt a triple espresso considering he wasn’t sleeping all too well lately—before he dropped the cup back down onto his desk with a little too much force. “How can I help you today, anyway?”
“I don’t need any help,” I assured him.
“Then why the call?”
“Just being friendly.”
“Tucker…”
“You don’t believe me?”
“Hell no, I don’t.”
“Fine. I’m outside Babylon High.”
He paused for a beat too long before he eventually spoke. “Why?”
“I don’t know.”
