I nod, and his grip on my hair turns more demanding, his hand and hips working in tandem. He takes complete control, and I accept everything he gives me, running my hands over his defined stomach and letting my nails scrape over his strong thighs. He’s stunning. Savage and desperate and possessed, and I don’t know how I’ll ever look away from him.
“I swear to god, if we keep going, I’m gonna come down your throat.”
I hum my consent, my whole body tight and overheated from seeing him lose control. He lets out another string of curses and my name before pulsing in my mouth, my body pushed back against the door as he jolts.
There. Hot, but nothing romantic about him fucking my mouth. This can stay just sex.
Colton looks down at where I’m kneeling and runs a finger down my cheek. He places it under my chin, tilting my face up to his, watching in fascination as I swallow. He’s a handsome man on any day, but when he’s rumpled and undone like this, I’ve never seen anyone so beautiful. I want him beyond all reason, and just like last time, I know tonight won’t be enough.
“Venus,” he murmurs, his eyes falling closed as his breathing evens out, and my heart skips a beat.
I run my fingers through my hair as I stand up. Colton’s looking at me with a combination of lust and orgasm-fueled reverence that could be easily confused for something else. And shit, I think I want thesomething else, and that isn’t acceptable. He told me he doesn’t want a significant other, and I told him the same.
He’s been the most stable relationship in my life for fourteen years. Part of me thinks if there’s anyone in the world who couldhandle me, it’s him. But a bigger part is afraid that in truth, I’m just not worth sticking around for when it isn’t easy. And if I lost him, I wouldn’t survive it.
This is all Inez’s fault. She put this complication in my mind, made me see things that aren’t there, and I need to get my head on straight. I start pacing the room like I can outrun these feelings, but the tiny bedroom is like a chariot track, and no matter how quickly I run, it always circles back to him.
Finally, I stop and turn him, asking a question that’s both electrifying and terrifying.
“This is just sex, right?”
24
COLTON
I’m still tryingto piece my mind back together. This woman just sucked my soul out, and she wants to talk about this now?
I drop down into the armchair in the corner of my room, my head falling back so I’m looking up at the ceiling. My chest is still heaving and if I answer now, I’ll probably declare my love and blow up our entire friendship.
“Give a man a second to recover, Chaos.”
When she doesn’t laugh, I look up to find she’s started pacing the room again. The lush bottom lip that gave me more pleasure than I imagined possible is tucked between her teeth, and she’s tapping her fingers on the side of her leg like she always does when trying to keep herself from talking. She looks terrified, and it’s all my fault. I could feel the love shining from my eyes as I looked down at her, so perfect on her knees for me, and now I’ve scared her off.
Quinn stops in front of me. “Colton, answer my question.”
My eyebrows draw together. “Isn’t that what you want? Just sex?”
Her eyes go wide, like a sweet baby deer. “Yeah, obviously that’s what I want.”
I nod, even though I feel like I’ve been thrown into an MMA ring with no training and am getting the shit beat out of me.
“I’m freaking out, Colt,” she says.
“Why are you freaking out?”
“Because,” she says at an octave I’ve never heard from her. “This is the sort of thing people freak out over. We’ve hooked up twice now.”
“Technically four times.” My lip quirks up at the memories of the night before, and Quinn smacks my shoulder.
“Stop being cute,” she says, like it’s the most painful thing she’s ever experienced.
I grab Quinn by the waist and pull her to a stop between my legs. “You’re scared about our friendship? We felt like us on the trip home, and that was after we slept together. I don’t feel like it’s ruined. Do you?”
She chews on her lip again and shakes her head.
“Right. Because there’s no universe where you aren’t my best friend. No choice that could be made to drive me away.”
She rolls her lips together to try to hide her smile. “Promise?”
