Great.
Shower it was.
My legs felt a bit wobbly as I got up, and I nearly let out a laugh.
Look at the mighty fucking vampire who gets thrown off balance by a simple jerk-off session. I shook my head. In all honesty, I doubted I’d ever come so hard jacking off. But I’d been thinking about Finn, and he’d made all the difference.
Maybe it was a “mates” thing. I definitely wouldn’t ask Aries about it, though. I could only imagine how he’d react. He’d be fucking delighted, there was no doubt about it. But he’d also be so damn smug about it and smirk at me in that arrogant way of his. He’d call meyounglingagain, imply that I had no experience whatsoever.
And he might be closer to the truth than I ever wanted to let him know.
I snorted as I entered the bathroom.
I turned on the lights, which was more of a habit than a necessity. I could see just fine in the darkness, especially since my vampire side was still out to play. But after living as a human for twenty-five years, some things were just ingrained.
I quickly started the shower, then threw my soiled underwear in the hamper before getting under the hot spray. The water wasscalding hot, filling the room with steam within seconds. If Finn were here, I’d never turn it so hot, but my skin didn’t react to heat the same way that a human’s did. Sunlight was a big no-no for me, but a bit of hot water couldn’t hurt me. And sometimes I liked it.
Vampires naturally ran cold. It was something you got used to. But occasionally, I just wanted to feel warm. Not being bothered by the cold wasn’t the same as feeling warminside.
Tilting my head back, I let the stream soak my hair.
Showering like this was great. Relaxing. But it’d be infinitely better if I had Finn with me. I wouldn’t need hot water to warm me up. Because Finn’s mere presence warmed me better than a fucking bonfire would.
Maybe next time he stayed over.
I sighed. I got why he’d left. I really did. He hadn’t said anything, but he hadn’t needed to. I’d seen the way his posture had tensed when we’d extended the offer to stay the day at ours. Had seen the way his nose had crinkled for a moment, just for the blink of an eye.
It was okay.
Kinda.
Truthfully, it sucked. I wanted him here.Always. If I had my way, I’d move him in yesterday. That way, I’d be able to watch over him better too. I wouldn’t have to spend most of the evenings sitting on a fucking rooftop like a creep, watching Finn through his apartment windows.
Hell, if Finn moved in, Bennie could finally stop making fun of me for stalking. I wasn’t stalking him. I didn’t have an unhealthy obsession with him. Yeah, at one point I’d thought my vampire side did have an unhealthy obsession with a guy I’d been low-key crushing on even when I’d been a human. It’d never made sense to me.
Now it did.
Some part of me must’ve always known that Finn was my soulmate, even when I’d first spotted him, when he was just eighteen and a freshman in college. It hadn’t been that intense back then, though. It’d been more of an “oh wow, he’s cute.” I’d been about to hit on him when I realized he was a freshman. And at twenty-three, the prospect of hitting on a barely eighteen-year-old had been icky.
So I’d stayed away. Back then, that hadn’t been an issue, not like it’d been for the past three years. I’d occasionally caught glimpses of him here and there on campus, and yeah, I’d liked what I saw. There’d always been that fluttering feeling in my chest, a swarm of butterflies starting, but it hadn’t been impossible to ignore.
I shook my head and grabbed the shampoo.
It was weird to think that Finn was now twenty-three. The same age I’d been when I’d first laid eyes on him. And I was technically still twenty-five. Well, my body was. I wanted to say I’d matured during the last three years, but if Aries was to be believed, I still had a lot of growing up to do. A different kind of puberty, so to speak.
Though I really didn’t like that thought.
I closed my eyes and stepped back under the spray, the hot water hitting my face, washing away the suds and the last remnants of my release while I contemplated what I was going to do today. Message Finn to check on him for sure.
Maybe ask for another date.
Now that he knew I could only go out in the evenings or at night, it’d be easier to suggest dates. We could go see a movie. Go to a restaurant. Hell, if he wanted to, I’d go to a pub night with him. Maybe I could even join him and his friends.
I’d happily do it all. All the coupley stuff I’d never gotten to do with anyone.
Shutting off the shower, I grabbed a towel and started drying myself off, only stopping when I glimpsed myself in the mirror. I was grinning like a damn fool, the way I only looked when I thought about Finn.
Rolling my eyes, I rubbed the towel over my head, then grabbed a brush to tame the strands.
