Jessie shuddered at that ghastly thought.
“Oui, demoiselle, I have seen it before.” He raised a brow. “But enough of Ben—’tis my son I’ve come to discuss with you just now.”
Jessie’s eyes widened and her jaw fell. She closed her mouth abruptly, for she had no idea what to say in response. “You know?”
His face contorted. “I take it Hawk has confided in you, then, for you seem to know precisely who it is I’m speaking of.” He nodded, seeming pleased with the discovery. “But then, of course, he would have,” he addressed himself. He sighed. “So much makes sense to me now.” He chuckled softly, the sound so oddly familiar that it sent a chill down Jessie’s spine. “I take it you think I did not know?” He clucked his tongue, casting Jessie a reproachful glance. “But I ask you,ma petite, now could I not know? A man would have to be blind—nay, there can be no mistaking it; Hawk is my son.”
Jessie’s shock was evident in her expression. “I—” She shook her head in stunned disbelief. “He has no idea that you know,” she told him after a moment.
“Aye,” Jean Paul confirmed, “and that is my own fault, I fear. I made his sweetmamanswear to me that she would never tell him... and then, when I thought he knew, I pretended ignorance.I just could not seem to meet his eyes when he spoke of her, for then he would know,cherie, that I love her still.”
“But... I don’t understand...”
“I was not certain until now that he knew, you see. But if my son has confided in you, then indeed he knows. And still... I must allow Hawk to decide to accept me of his own accord. I would not betray his mother by speaking of it first. So until the day he acknowledges it, I am content simply to have Hawk as my friend. Tell me, how blessed can a man hope to be? I cannot give him my name, but my son has my friendship, and that is so much more. How many fathers can say as much?Non, non,fear not,mon ange, I am perfectly content with my lot—but enough of me! I came because I must know for certain... do you love him... do you love my son?”
Jessie frowned. “He’s a rude, contemptible boor!” she told him with conviction, taking the seat across from him.
Jean Paul watched her with probing blue eyes, as though to see through her words. He chuckled softly. “Yes, I know… but do you love him,cherie? That was the question.”
“Nay!” Jessie said much too quickly. She shook her head emphatically. Perhaps a bit too zealously, for something in Jean Paul’s expression told her that he did not believe her.
Suddenly Jean Paul slapped his hand down upon the table. “I see,” he said, smiling slyly.
He nibbled at the side of his mouth for a moment as he stared at her. “Very well then.” He nodded, rising from his chair, obviously through with his interrogation of her, brief as it was. “Yes, I do think I know what must be done then, demoiselle. And you are quite certain you do not love him?”
Misunderstanding his question, Jessie shook her head, and then realizing what she was saying, nodded at once with a certainty she didn’t quite feel.
Jean Paul chuckled, giving her a conspiratorial wink, and Jessie had the most awful premonition as he turned to leave, yet before she could question him about it, he was gone. She spent the rest of the afternoon worrying over Jean Paul’s strange visit, wondering at his cryptic remarks.
That night, however, her curiosity came to an end when the door to the cabin burst open and slammed shut behind Christian.
The room was pitch black, the lanterns having been snuffed for the night, but Jessie knew it was him. Her skin prickled, and gooseflesh erupted.
“Why isn’t the door bolted?”
Jessie didn’t have time to reply to his question before he spoke again, this time his tone somewhat less angry, though ominous still.
“That whoreson cousin of yours!” he muttered irately, his words slightly slurred. “And that damned Jean Paul! Those two are enough to tax a dead man’s soul! I swear before God, woman, did I remain one more instant in that bloody cabin with those two bickering idiots for company, I would like to have shot them both again!”
He turned to her, searching the darkness as though to be certain he was not talking to himself, for Jessie had yet to give him indication she was awake. She knew the moment his eyes adjusted to the darkness and he saw her, for his scowl immediately disappeared.
His features softened, illuminated by the light from the window, and the strange tenderness evident in his gaze gave lie to the brutality of his words.
“Say one word against my presence, and you shall find yourself overboard in a twinkling!” Having said that, he lapsed into a strained silence as he proceeded to tug off his boots. They fell to the floor, each with a thud. Without preamble, he beganremoving his breeches, then deciding against it, left them on, but unclasped. His shirt, which was already gaping, he removed quickly. Jessie thanked God for the shadows that concealed—to hide not him, but the flush that even now was burning through her body.
And then he asked, more softly this time, as he wadded his shirt and hurled it to the floor, “Why in bloody blue blazes wasn’t the door bolted, Jessie?”
Jessie tried, but couldn’t find her voice to speak.
“You were perhaps expecting someone?” He stood there, awaiting her reply, and when it was not forthcoming he demanded, “Scoot over.”
Apparently Jessie didn’t move quickly enough for him, for he very nearly lay upon her as he plopped himself down next to her upon the bed. She did scoot away then—at once—to the far, far side of the bed.
Christian gave her a cynical little laugh. “Can’t bear to touch me, love? Damn, but you are a deceiving little prude.Pardonnez-moi,” he said scornfully, “but I’ll bloody well not sleep on the floor for you, so you might as well bear my presence as best you can and simply go to sleep.”
With that, he promptly snatched the pillow from under her head. Jessie’s cheek hit the bed with a soft thud as he then proceeded to pound the pillow with his clenched fist, as though to remove all trace of her presence from it. She didn’t bother protesting. It wouldn’t have done any good. The man was an insensitive oaf!
“Bon nuit,” he whispered “Pleasant dreams,mon amour!”
