Eventually, I got my hands between us and pushed his jeans down, moaning happily as his hard cock sprung into my hands. He was just as gorgeous there as he was everywhere else, and he wasbig. I squirmed at the thought of how he was going to feel inside me, grinning harder.
“You like that, huh?” Cooper murmured, rubbing our noses together. He was sosweet. Better than ice cream, although the ice cream had been life-changing and even now I was wondering when I could go back for more.
Because Cooper was right. I could have ice cream, and almond milk, andthis. I could indulge now.
“A lot,” I said, stroking him through his underwear a few times before shoving it down as well, getting my hands on hot, bare skin, velvet soft against my palms.
“Well,” Cooper said, voice tight and breathless. “All yours.”
I laughed, moving one hand to curl around the back of his neck and pull him in for a kiss, stroking him lazily with the other, palm open, just enough friction to be frustrating without any hope of being satisfying. When he came, I wanted it to be inside me.
“Show me,” I said when I’d had enough of his mouth for a minute. “Lube on the nightstand.”
Cooper glanced over, another shy smile spreading over his face. “You were planning this?”
“I don’t know how you could possibly think I wouldn’t want to take advantage of the sweetest, hottest man I’ve ever met apparently being into me.”
“Definitely into you,” Cooper murmured, eyes glinting as they roamed over my face, as though he was committing it to memory. “You have no idea.”
I swallowed. If I went down that conversational rabbit hole, I’d probably ruin the mood by bursting into tears. No one wanted me anymore. I was an ex-ballet dancer, which wasn’t anything at all.
Except that right now, I was with Cooper. And that was something.
“Show me,” I demanded again. “Do you know how much time I’ve spent fantasizing about your hands? I want your fingers inside me.”
Cooper’s shy smile widened a fraction as he eased away from me, treating me to a view of his cock, flushed dark and straining up towards his belly button, a bead of precome pearling at the end, sticking out of his…
“Dinosaur print?” I asked, raising a brow at his underwear.
Cooper looked down and shrugged. “Benji thought they were cool. He’s got matching ones.”
“Oh my God.” I laughed, a surge of warm, fuzzy affection rising up under my ribs. “You’re perfect. You’reperfect.”
Cooper blushed again, climbing off the bed to wriggle out of his jeans and novelty underwear, leaving them to pool on the floor. He must’ve kicked his boots off earlier, because that left him in just a pair of thick black socks that’d seen better days.
He was soreal. I’d spent so much time around men who were plucked and polished and groomed and sculpted past the point of seeming likepeople, and I couldn’t get over how hot it was to look at a man who looked so like the men I’d first realized I was into when I was a teenager.
“Something up?” Cooper asked. I realized then that I’d been staring open-mouthed at him for alotlonger than I’d intended.
“Teenage Felix wouldn’t believe his luck if he could see what I’m seeing now.”
Cooper scoffed, his blush darkening. He plucked off his socks while I kicked my shoes off by the heels like I’d been told a thousand times not to, and grabbed the lube.
A pang of anticipation made my stomach clench. I hadn’t been excited like this about sex in… longer than I cared to think about.
As the mattress dipped under Cooper’s weight, I couldn’t help grinning up at him. What had I done to deserve this?
“So I’m guessing it’s been a while for you?” Cooper asked, voice low and gentle.
“Since…” I trailed off with a vague gesture, hoping Cooper would fill in thethe accidentblank.
He nodded. “Yeah, figured. So you’ll stop me if this is too much, right?”
“I will,” I promised. I wasn’t sure that was true, I wasn’t sure I’d be able to make myself stop him, but I trusted that if Ididask him to stop, he would. And he wouldn’t complain about it or tell me to stop being a baby or… any of the other things I’d heard before.
Cooper made me feel safe in a way I hadn’t realized Icould.
“Good,” he said, setting the lube down beside us.
