Ah. That explained the blush. Normally that would’ve mademeblush, too, but knowing Xander had planned for this made me smile instead.
“Been a while,” he explained, setting lube and a box of condoms up on the nightstand. “But I want… I mean, ifyouwant,I’d really like…”
“I want,” I said, pulling him down for another kiss, giggling into his mouth and biting his lip, excitement welling up in the pit of my stomach. I wanted. More than I could ever remember wanting before in my life.
“I want,” I repeated between kisses. “In a minute.”
Xander laughed, letting me pull him closer so I could kiss all the tension out of him, stroke my hands down his body and start working on gettinghimnaked, which I’d been sorely neglecting before now.
“Wanna ride you,” Xander murmured in my ear as I shoved my hand up under his t-shirt.
I was pretty sure my brain melted for a few seconds while I remembered how to form words with my mouth.
“You just said it’s been a while.”
Xander snorted. “Don’t care,” he said. “Sweet of you to worry, though.”
“I’m the kindest, sweetest man you’ve ever met,” I reminded him, pushing his shirt all the way up and off, running my hands down newly naked skin.
I meant it when I said I could’ve just kissed Xander all night and been happy. Not that I was complaining about giving him exactly what he really wanted.
“You are,” Xander agreed. His hair was mussed and his smile was crooked and I couldn’t stop staring at him, perched on top of me like he belonged there. Maybe he did.
“That’s why I want this,” he said, shifting his weight. “I wantyou.”
Yeah. Yeah, I got that. I wanted him, too, in the way he meant. It mattered that it was him. It could only have been him.
I pulled Xander down for another kiss because it’d been at least thirty seconds since the last one and rolled us both over on the bed while he was distracted, laughing at the indignant sound he made.
“You’ll get what you asked for,” I promised, grinding against him, letting him feel just how into the idea I was. “After I’ve prepped you with all the care and patience you deserve.”
21
XANDER
“You feel so good,”Milo murmured in my ear as I sank down on him, biting my lip, glad he’d taken care of me so thoroughly before I tried this. Seth’s math wasn’t far off and it reallyhadbeen a long time for me, but being able to feel every inch of him was exactly what I wanted.
“Funny.” I laughed, breathless, against his shoulder. “I was just thinking the same about you.”
Milo hummed, long fingers stroking my butt, his other hand squeezing my waist. I could feel him trembling with the effort of keeping still, but he was doing it, and I would’ve bet everything I had he’d do it for hours if I asked him to.
Lucky for both of us, I didn’t want to wait hours. His breath caught as I rolled my hips, fingers tightening on my butt, anddamnthat was good. Milo laughed when I moved the hand on my waist to the other cheek, encouraging him.
“So gonna feel this in the morning,” I said, more breath than words.
“We can stop,” Milo offered. He meant it, too. He wouldn’t even have been mad at me.
He was so perfect.
“Absolutely not,” I said, rocking my hips again, biting my lip as I felt his fingers tighten. I really hoped he was planning to keep that up. “Next time we do this, I’m gonna want to feel it for a week.”
Whatever Milo had been about to say in response to that turned into a wordless cry as I moved again, grinding down against him this time, taking him as far as he could go. I hadn’t done this all that often, and it’d never felt quite like this. Like I had the power to get under Milo’s skin and take him apart.
I loved it.
I loved looking down at him when I finally propped myself up, hands curled around his shoulders, gaze focused on his face. Every twist and gasp and sigh went straight to my dick, bouncing against my stomach with every thrust, Milo’s body relaxing under me as we found a rhythm together, his fingers digging deep into the flesh of my ass now. He gripped me like he was afraid I’d disappear.
I’d never felt wanted like Milo wanted me. I’d neverbeenwanted like Milo wanted me.
