Ryder kissed the back of my neck slowly, fingers massaging into my butt on one side, curled around my shoulder on the other. I could feel him pressed against me, hot and hard and slick, stomach fluttering at the thought of how he’d feel inside me.
“Because you don’t have to do it,” Ryder said, still toying with my butt. “A couple of fingers is all fun and games, but this is gonna feel—”
“Ryder,” I cut him off. “Will you shut up and fuck me?”
Ryder chuckled into my ear. “I can’t get a please?”
“Will you please shut up and fuck me?” I tried.
“Starting to get the impression you’re into this,” Ryder teased, rocking his hips against me.
At least I wasn’t nervous anymore.
I was about to sayI wouldn’t know yetwhen the pressure of Ryder’s cock pressing up against me stopped me in my tracks.
“Ready?”
I nodded one more time, closed my eyes, and forced myself to relax.
“I got you,” Ryder murmured. “Don’t worry, I’m incredibly average.”
A half-startled laugh escaped me, turning into a groan as Ryder pushed forward, one hand still on my shoulder, the other curled firmly around my hip now, holding me in place.
He was right, this sure as hell was different.
Notbaddifferent, though.
“Doing great,” Ryder murmured, still easing forward, hisincredibly averagecock apparently something like three feet long, judging by the pace.
I let go of a breath I hadn’t intended to hold as his hips pressed up against mine.
Ryder laughed, breathless, pressing his forehead to the back of my neck. “I forgot what this felt like,” he said. “Gimme a second.”
I needed a second too, but hearing that Ryder did was exciting in a way I hadn’t thought to expect. When I’d asked if he’d do this for me, it’d been all aboutme. For once in my life.
Part of me loved the idea that this was just as overwhelming for him. I’dwantedto be overwhelmed, I’d wanted to have this big life-changing moment with Ryder.
Kind of a surprise to learn that it wasn’t that overwhelming after all. Not with him. Like everything else, it was comfortable. I knew, without having to worry for a single second, that there was no way I could screw this up.
I wished I’d had all my firsts with him, but I was glad I’d managed to save one.
“Should’ve known you’d feel just as good this way as you do inside me,” he said.
A shiver rolled through me at the way his voice sounded, already rough.
“Tell me how you’re feeling,” Ryder prodded, sweeping his hand up and down my side in long strokes.
“Full,” I admitted, heat rushing to my face.
“Too much?” Ryder asked.
I shook my head. No, not too much. It was new, but it wasn’t too much.
A high-pitched laugh escaped me, a sudden surge of excitement at the thought of what we were doing. Ryder was with me, Ryder wasinsideme, and it felt… good. It felt good to be this close to him, in a way I’d never been close with anyone before.
“Ward?”
I laughed again, shifting on the bed, giving my hips one experimental roll, breath hitching as pleasure points I’d never fully explored lit up with possibility.
