Right?
“Yourboyfriend. Who you just broke up with out of nowhere, from his perspective.”
What if I wanna be?
Crap. He’d asked, hadn’t he? To be my boyfriend. And I’d been so determined that no one would ever love me that I’d asked if he meantfor the night.
And he hadn’t actually said yes. He’d saidtonight, because that wasn’t what he was asking at all. He wasn’t asking if we could have sex, he’dneverbeen asking for that.
He’d been asking for me. And I was only now realizing it.
“I fucked up,” I said, mostly to myself. Angelica made a little sound of agreement anyway.
I was glad she wasn’t in the room with me, because I thought maybe there was a chance she’d strangle me over this.
“I fucked up,” I repeated. “I hurt him.”
“Yep,” Angelica said. “What’re you planning on doing about it?”
WhatwasI planning on doing about it? I was pretty sure flowers wouldn’t do the job. I’d seen the look on Kieran’s face.
Heartbreak. Panic, even.
No, it had to be something bigger. I’d screwed up and missed my chance to tell him how much he meant to me because I was so busy worrying I’d lose him again that I couldn’t let myself see that Ihadhim.
It had to be something…
Oh. Oh,of course. Perfect.
“I’m planning to write those last three chapters,” I said. “Bye Angelica, I’ll email them to you when I’m done.”
“Felix, what—”
I hung up before she could object, grabbing my laptop and settling in with Kieran’s hoodie wrapped around my shoulders.
I knewexactlywhat I had to do.
26
Kieran
“Fuck,”I hissed as my screwdriver slipped, stabbing my other hand hard enough to pierce the skin and draw blood.
“Kieran?” Mrs. Kwan asked.
“I’m oka—ah—ow,” I whined as I banged my head on the counter above my head, trying to back out from under the sink without doing myself any more harm.
Clearly, that had gone well.
“You okay?” Mrs. Kwan asked, peering down at me through her inch-thick glasses.
I wasn’t sure I could answer honestly without swearing.
“How did your romantic dinner go?” she asked. “Was she pretty?”
“He was,” I said, and then stared at her in horror for a moment.
But…
