I didn’t have an answerfor that.
Reduced to speechlessness bya little old lady in a fluffy robe.
“Too soon to say,” Mrs. Seifconcluded, which was absolutely not what was happening here.
Not pushing Ashley off mewhen he’dbeen upset and needy wasn’t the same asalmost his boyfriend.
I didn’t haveboyfriends! I…
Just… kind of…
Let him kiss me.
Now that the danger hadpassed, there was a big question mark overwhyI’d done that.
I could have pushed him off.
Idefinitelydidn’t need tosqueeze his ass.
What the hell had I beenthinking?
“Did you need something,Mrs. Seif?” Ashley asked over my shoulder, nudging me out of the way to dealwith his… neighbor, I guessed.
“Have you seen Mr. Lumpkins?”she asked.
Ah, that explained why Ihadn’tstopped Ashley from kissing me.
I’d finally gone insane.
“He’s a dwarf lop rabbit,”Ashley explained, which didn’t answer most of my questions, but almostexplained the name.
“And I haven’t seen him,” headded. “I’m sorry. I hope he turns up.”
Mrs. Seif shrugged. “I’ve gottenattached to him,” she said. “You will let me know if he turns up?”
“Absolutely,” I promised.
If I saw a white rabbithopping past right now, there was a better than even chance I’d burst intotears. No point in telling a total stranger that, though.
“Good night, Mrs. Seif,” Icontinued when she nodded. “Nice to meet you.”
“Bring him to dinner,” Mrs.Seif stage-whispered to Ashley before she walked away.
Ashley shut the door with afirm click the moment she was far enough away for it not to be unforgivablyrude.
Silence lingered for a beattoo long.
I wanted to talk to him. Saysomething. Promise him that things were okay, that this was on me, that I’d be moreprofessional from now on, he’d just caught me off-guard.
Had he? Was that all it was?
Lots of straight guys kissedother guys once or twice, right? That was normal. Especially when the other guywas gay, and started it.
Totally normal.
Ashley had just neededsomeone, and being kissed was being kissed. It hadn’t been all that differentto kissing a girl.
My body had reacted likenormal because it was nice to be kissed and touched like that. Just anautomatic reaction.
