But then, I trusted that hewouldn’t.He’d shown me before now that Icouldtrust him, and this wasimportant to me. He’d know that.
“Don’t laugh,” I warned anyway,nervousness getting the better of me. Fox just met my gaze, holding itsteadily, waiting for me to continue.
“I’ve always wanted… or Iguess I always imagined… having sex in a bed, under the covers. Slowly.”
Fox blinked, but remainedsilent.
He was waiting for therest.It wasn’tthat he was laughing at me, it was that he didn’t even recognize what I wasasking for as any kind of fantasy.
“That’s it,” I clarified. “Justthat. I know it’s stupid.”
“It’s not,” Fox said. “Very,very sweet. But not stupid.”
He paused, lowering hiseyes, still stroking up and down my side. “Are you sure I’m the rightchoice for a first time? Because I assume you’re asking to go the whole way,here?”
“Yes.”
I hated how tiny my voicesounded, how nervous I was about this, but if it wasn’t Fox, it’d have to besomeone else. And who knew when I’d find someone I could trust this much, whomade me feel thissafeagain?
This was an opportunity Icouldn’tpass up. If Fox didn’t mind indulging me, I was ready for this. With him.
“You could do better,” Foxsaid, still not meeting my eyes.
I couldn’t imaginehow. Fox had been sokind to me.
“I don’t want to do better,”I said, shaking my head. “I want it to beyou.”
Fox licked his lips, butthen, eventually, nodded. “All right. Tell me all about this fantasy, then?”
A smile broke over my face,the warm beginnings of arousal simmering in the pit of my stomach. “We’d undresseach other first. Take our time. Touch and stroke and kiss until we were bothtoo impatient to wait any longer. And then we’d pull the covers back and slideunder them, and you’d… umm, you’d prep me, and…”
“If you’re ready to do it,you’re ready to say it,” Fox teased.
“Fuck me,” I blurted out. “But…slowly. Gently. Like, umm…”
Like you loved me, I didn’t say. I couldn’task that of him, but I wanted it. The closeness. Something I could keep as amemory of Fox, one perfect night to tuck away in my heart.
“Like you’re special,” Foxfinished for me. “As is only right, because youarespecial.”
The heat of a blush crept upmy neck, but I still managed to nod. Yes. That was what I wanted.
Fox to treat me like Imatteredto him, like I wasn’t just a random hookup or a fling.
Like this meant as much tohim as it did to me.
“I’d love to,” Fox saidsoftly. “Haven’t had the chance for something like that in a long time, though.Might be a little rusty.”
“I’ve never had an actualcock inside me,” I reminded him. “I won’t notice.”
Fox snorted. “Oh, you’llnotice once it’s in, don’t worry,” he said, grinning at me. “Hard to miss, inmy experience.”
I rolled my eyes. “You know what Imean. I don’t care if you’renot perfect. I just… want you.”
“Then you shall have me,”Fox promised, still stroking up and down my side. “Race you to the bedroom?”
I laughed, scrambling offhis lap to vault over the back of the couch, still cackling as he shouted thatI wascheatingand raced after me.
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