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Finn laughed as Nolan pinned him to the wall, more than happy to give into kissing him as much as he wanted. There was something exciting about doing this in the sanctuary, especially when the two of them were supposed to be working.
It wasn’t quite breaking the rules, but it was as close to it as Finn felt the need to get. Besides, Nolan seemed to be so much more comfortable here than anywhere else.
Seeing him happy made Finn’s heart sing.
“I think you just came here to make out with me,” Finn murmured between kisses, letting his nose brush against Nolan’s. The intimacy growing between them made his chest tight with joy. The more Finn could get of that, the happier he’d be.
“I came here to make sure Ollie was okay and because Gavin didn’t want me to,” Nolan said. Finn smiled at that, proud of him for standing up to Gavin even in this small way.
“Making out with you is a fun bonus, though,” he added after a moment, seizing Finn’s lips again.
Finn smiled into the kiss, settling his hands on Nolan’s waist and squeezing gently. Thisdefinitelycounted as a fun bonus in his book.
“Coming home with me tonight?” Finn asked, his lips brushing against Nolan’s as he spoke.
“I thought you might come home withmeagain. If uh… if that’s something you want.”
“Sounds good,” Finn agreed, grinning down at him. It was good to have this again after so long without it. To have someone he could kiss, and hold, and go home with.
“And I was thinking,” Nolan said, meeting Finn’s eyes and holding his gaze. “I was thinking… I uh… want you to umm… be my first?”
As close as they were, Finn could feel the heat rising off Nolan’s cheeks as he blushed.
“Hasn’t that ship kinda sailed?” Finn asked, positive they’d already done that. He’d been honored, and he was certain it had actually happened.
“I know we… this is awkward, but I don’t feel like…” Nolan sighed, frustrated. “Why is it so hard to ask you to fuck me?”
Finn swallowed, a spark of arousal flaring up in the pit of his stomach. He got what Nolan was asking for now.
“You sure you’re ready for that?” he asked automatically, not wanting Nolan to feel pressured or like this was something theyhadto do. There were lots of fun things between enthusiastic handjobs and full penetrative sex.
Nolan nodded, confident for once. “Obviously if you don’t want to, that’s okay, but… I want to be able to stop thinking of myself as a virgin. And I want it to be with you. I trust you.”
“Okay,” Finn said, not about to refuse Nolan if this was what he really wanted. “Yeah, sure, okay.”
This was why Nolan wanted to go back to his own place, Finn thought. He’d feel more comfortable in a familiar setting.
Which was fine by Finn. This wasNolan’sfirst time. He wanted it to be good for him.
Nolan breathed a sigh of relief, smiling up at him brightly. “Thank you,” he said. “For being cool about this.”
“I’ll try to be cool about everything,” Finn promised. “Just because you’re cute.”
“Do you really think that?” Nolan asked, eyebrow raised, like he couldn’t possibly believe it.
Which was weird, because he was all puppy eyes and cute little button nose and soft-looking chocolate-brown hair. Every time he looked at him, Finn just wanted to take him home and hug him.
Plus, he was like Finn. He loved animals and he wanted to do something meaningful with his life, and he didn’t mind that Finn was choosing to follow his heart instead of anything that could reasonably be called a career path.
“I really think that,” Finn promised. “Thought it from the moment I met you. Cross my heart.”
“I don’t understand, but I do believe you,” Nolan said. “Only because I don’t think you’d lie to me.”
Finn sighed, reaching out stroke around the shell of Nolan’s ear. “I know a lot of people have told you you’re not enough,” he murmured. “I’m telling you that you are.”
Nolan sighed. “I’m sorry. It’s just… Gavin, I guess.”
