I’m also disappointed that for the first time in my life, I feel like I’ve failedmyself. I’d like to call myself an honorable man that keeps his word, but while lying here tonight, I can’t help thinking about the promises I haven’t upheld.
I swore I would always be her friend no matter what happened, and I failed. I watched my best friend fall and didn’t even attempt to catch her.
In Italy, I vowed that if she told me her truths, we would get through them, and instead of doing that, I turned my back on her.
That’s not the man I want to be.
I never want to be likehim, my dad… The other reason for my insomnia.
I slam my head back on my pillow, frustrated that my sister and Wills put me in this position. I want nothing to do with the man that gave up on us so long ago, and I can’t wrap my head around Sadie wanting to either.
My phone buzzes, breaking me out of my thoughts. As I sit up and read the text that’s just come in from our New York group chat, I realize I’ve missed a few and scroll back to catch myself up.
Leo: I just got the best head. Top fucking notch.
Seb: How the fuck are we brothers? Keep that shit to yourself.
Leo: Holy fuck, Nate.
Leo: She’s engaged.
Nate: Who is?
Leo: Maddie Grace.
Leo: Hello?
Nate: Don’t fuck with me.
Seb: Mason just confirmed… Shit. I’m sorry, man.
Well, fuck.
Maddie is the one who got away, and Nate’s been obsessing over her for years, especially since he’s the reason she left.
This is going to fuck him up real bad.
Me: I didn’t even know she was dating someone. I’m so fucking out of the loop.
Seb: Why are you up?
Me: Can’t sleep.
Seb: Everything good?
Nate: Who the hell cares if everything is good with Peters?
Nate: What am I going to do?????
Nate: FUCKKKKKK
Nate: FUCK FUCK FUCK
Nate: Where does she live? Still in Georgia? What’s this fucker’s name? How did they meet?
Nate: And why didn’t anyone fucking tell me it was serious? You were supposed to keep me fucking updated… What kind of brothers are you?
Nate Davenport has left the group.
