Page 8 of Damaged Like Us


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Twenty-two-year-old me is still pissed that I put Farrow in my spank bank.

“Number twelve.” I nod to the list.

He eyes me for a long moment before focusing on the paper. “It says that you’re not used to letting other people behind the wheel.” It actually saysI always drive.

I glance at him once, then back to the road. “I didn’t realize that you can’t read.” I switch lanes.

I can almost feel his smile stretch. “Always a precious smartass.” I hear him flip a page. “You have a typo on number thirty-two.”

He called me precious.What the fuck does that even mean?Precious.I have to let it go, but the word scrolls across my gaze like a tickertape banner. “What typo?”

“You forgot a comma.”

I let out an irritated groan. “This isn’t a term paper. Don’t critique my grammar.”

Farrow kicks up one of his shoes on the seat. Balancing his forearm on his knee. Then he bites the staple off and spits it out. I tense and try to watch him and the road simultaneously.

He has a very particular way he moves his hands. They shift with meticulousness and care. A sort of accuracy that belongs to surgeons and someone equipped to disassemble and reassemble a gun blindfolded.

I’ve imagined those handsonme too many times to count.Don’t fucking restart now.I’m trying not to, but having him this close, the NC-17 fantasies vie to breach the surface. Heat blankets my skin and tries to grip my cock.

Thumbing through the papers, Farrow tells me, “You’re about to miss our exit.”

“Shit.”

He smiles a self-satisfied, entertained smile, but I skillfully veer over three lanes of traffic and dodge more paparazzi. Making the exit ramp safely.

Farrow folds nearly all of the pages and only keeps two sheets.

“What are you doing?” I ask.

He waves the folded stack. “How about you ditch eighty-five percent of your rules and be less of a wolf scout,wolf scout?”

“No.” I shake my head a few times. Those rules reflect my current way of living. “This is my fucking life, Farrow.”

“And you have to make room for me,” he says seriously. “We’ll find a groove together, but not when you put me in a headlock before the match even starts.”

I honestly think he just hates being confined by strict rules that aren’t his own. “Declan followed them.”

“To your detriment,” he says bluntly. “You have a speeding habit.Ishould be driving.”

We’re on that again.

“I drive,” I tell him. “Your options areendless. Watch me drive. Watch the other cars. Watch the horizon. Count road signs. Play with the music?—”

“Inaccurate.” He licks his thumb and flips quickly through the pages before landing on one. “Number ninety-two.I prefer no music in the car until noon.” He tilts his head at me. “Because…?”

“I usually have to make business calls.For charity,” I emphasize. He knows that I work nonprofit. Every day will beTake Farrow To Work Day. It’s weird. What’s weirder is that he’s currently working right now. He’s not just in my car to chat. He’s on-the-job.

“Are you planning to make a business call now?” he questions.

“No.”

“Then really this should say ‘I prefer no music in the car until noonwhen I have business calls.’” He pops open the middle console and finds a pen. He rewrites the rule. “You also have another typo?—”

“Shut up about the fucking typos,” I say and adjust the air conditioner, my body hot as his smile stretches wider and wider.

To fill the quiet, I switch on the radio and play an EDM station. Heavy bass pumps through the speakers.