“Moffy,” Ryke growls my name. “Did you fucking hear me?” His f-bombs come frequently but not very harshly. His gaze even softens on me. He doesn’t want to hurt me.
I don’t want to hurt him.
I’ve tried foryearsnot to hurt him, but this past year—I snapped. The paternity rumors are weeds that won’t die. And with the agitatingMaximoff Hale is just like Ryke Meadows!headlines, they sprout every time I blow a fuse and fight with my fists.
I should be chastised for the violence. Not be compared to my uncle out of affection.
“It’s not you,” I tell my uncle assuredly. “I love you. You know I love you. I’m just…” I motion to my head.
Overthinking. As always.
I just never want to be used as evidence for Loren Hale being unworthy or unfit as a father. I never want anyone to look at me and say,Maximoff is just like Ryke, so Ryke must’ve raised him. He must love Ryke more. He must hate his father. What if his father abuses him? What if he’s violent?
It’d be so easy for people to draw that conclusion because of my dad’s past. He’s a recovering alcoholic and has been sober for over twenty years, but his own dad was an alcoholic. The media said my grandfather abused my dad. In different ways. Some are true.
Some are false.
But I don’t want anyone to attachanyugly thing to Loren Hale. Stay back. I swear to fucking God. Stay back.
“What can I fucking do to help?” Ryke asks me. “I want to help.”
I nod repeatedly, and I spit it out. “Which one of you am I most like?” But it’s my dad who answers.
“You’re like all three of us, bud.”
I turn to my dad.
He touches his chest. “You’re sassy like me.” He points at Ryke. “A hardhead like my dear brother.” He nods to Connor. “And steadfast like my one true love.”
Connor grins. “I couldn’t agree more, darling.”
I start to smile. “With which part?”
He surprises me by saying, “All of it.”
I trust that they’re not pacifying me with lies. I nod a few more times. Ready to change the topic to one light-years away.
“Let’s talk about something else,” I suggest.
My dad asks, “How are you doing with your new bodyguard?”
Dear World, are you fucking with me or what? Sincerely, a startled human.
An image pops in my head: me on top of Farrow in the backseat of my car. Since all three of them hire the bodyguards to protect their children, I’m pretty much certain they’d all hear “you’re with your bodyguard” as “Farrow Keene took advantage of you”—and it’s just not true.
It’s why I have to lie. Sort of. “Farrow is annoying, a Grade-A know-it-all.”
My dad’s eyes grow teasingly. “You like him that much?”
I take a swig of water to submerge my smile. He’s just joking, but Christ, it’s real.
“That’s it?” Ryke asks, brows knotted.
I think fast. “We’re cordial. I respect him. He respects me. That’s all there is to say.”
“You’re okay to let him handle your NDAs?” Connor asks, referring to my one-night stands.
“Sure. Yeah.” I nod. “By the way, I’ve been meaning to ask.” I set my water bottle down. “What’s better, silicone-based lube or water-based?” The last word leaves my lips, and the office door cracks open. I expect Connor’s assistant to peek inside.
