Page 31 of Damaged Like Us


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I’m still lying on the ground. He’s still massaging my tight shoulders that refuse to unwind. His lips do brush my ear, and he actually, realistically whispers, “Let go.”

I can’t.

The moment I let go, I’ll cross a line that can’t be crossed.

He kneads my traps harder, deeper, almost bringing me somewhere I can’t ignore. To a state of euphoria. My eyes open but nearly roll back, my mouth slightly agape.Fucking…

I grab his wrist.

Suddenly. Instinctively. And he freezes, his palms on my lower back. Without releasing him, I use my other arm to prop my body. My chest rises in a heavy, ragged breath.

I glance at him.

Farrow breathes just as heavily, his eyes searching mine for reasons as to why I stopped him. I imagine shifting his hand lower. To my waistband. Beneath the fabric.

Do it.

I blink once—remembering that Jane is here. And then I think:that shouldn’t be the only reason why I stop.

He’s my fucking bodyguard.

I let go of his wrist.

The old loveseat squeaks as Jane sits up. “I can leave you two alone if you’d like?—”

“No,” I say firmly and stare hard at Farrow, waiting for him to reject that offer with me.

Farrow sweeps my body with a heady gaze, practically saying,I would’ve said yes.And then he stands up off of me.

I have no real time to think.

My phone rings on the coffee table. An incoming call. Not a text. I quickly stand and grab my phone. I see the caller ID: my little sister, and I become laser-eyed.

Colossallyfocused.

I concentrate on the here and now. Everything else behind me.

I put the phone to my ear. “Luna?” Strange breathing filters through the speaker. I frown. “Luna?”

Farrow stares faraway like someone is speaking into his earpiece. He walks towards the front door. Jane springs to her feet and checks her cell for any texts or information.

“Luna,answer me.” My cheekbones sharpen. I listen fixatedly, my grip tightened on the phone. She’s never done this before, but she’s also an oddball.

You know Luna Hale as the seventeen-year-old alien devotee who posts inarticulate ramblings on Twitter and believes UFOs are real. You rudely nicknamed her Secondhand Embarrassment. Some of you even call her “drunk” when she’s 100% sober, and you question the sanity of anyone who’d date her.

I know her as my little sister. A girl who stays true to herself amid constant ridicule. Someone I admire and love unconditionally.

Fair warning: I’ll kill you if you so much as breathe on her wrong. Simple as that.

Over the phone, Luna sighs so softly. I almost miss the sound.

“Talk to me, sis—” The call drops. What the fuck is going on? I turn to Janie. “Did you text your brothers?” Luna’s best friends are two of Jane’s younger brothers.

“Oui.” Janie texts rapidly. “Eliot and Tom keep sending me devil emojis.”

I shake my head, pissed. There arefiveCobalt boys, and my little sister had to befriend the two that lit Jane’s dollhouse on fire and laughed while it burned. They were ten years old back then, but at eighteen and seventeen, they still dance in chaos.

By the door, Farrow speaks into his mic. “Garage is full. You need to drop her off or park on the street. I can meet her at the car.” Farrow gestures me over, but I’m already approaching him.