Page 124 of Damaged Like Us


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I look up.

Charlie stands at the other end. I shake my head a few times. He carries poise like a unique possession only he owns. His tweets go viral in under seconds. His words are like cannonballs thrown into pools.

You’ve seen him onWe Are Calloway.You’ve watched him as long as you’ve watched me.

Threads about Charlie being a miniature version of his father—genius IQ, egotistical, self-serving and pretentious—swim around the internet like truths, but they’re webbed from slanted perceptions.

You think you know Charlie Keating Cobalt.

But you have no fucking clue.

I know him as my cousin who turned twenty in September, just two months ago. Who skipped two grades and landed in mine. Who cheated off my science homework only because he could—not because he needed to.

As the eldest sons of two larger than life men, we both know what it’s like to be shadowed by someone else’s past. But for as many similarities as we share—for as many things that should bond us together—we’ve chosen to let them push us apart.

Fair warning: you fuck with him, it’s going to make me want to defend him. So don’t.

All in one swift move, he tugs back the chair, sits down, and kicks his black leather shoes onto the oak table. His yellow-green eyes cement on me. “What’d I miss?”

I temper my irritation and say easily, “What are you doing here, Charlie?”

“What does it look like I’m doing?” He spreads out his arms. “I’m attending a board meeting.”

“You haven’t been to a board meeting since you wereputon this board,” I remind him. I’m highly aware that fifteen other people separate me from my cousin. Fifteen people observe this interaction with keen interest that hoists my guardstenfold.

“There’s a first for everything.” Charlie waves me on, then leans an elbow on his chair. Propping his head up with a finger by his temple.

He’s pissed at me.

But this is Tuesday and the sky is blue. So everything is as it should be.

I speak to the other board members. “We’re done here anyway. I’ll see you all next week. Thanks for coming.”

They collect their things. Sending wary glances at Charlie before filing out.

When the room empties, Charlie’s feet fall to the floor. He makes no move to cross the boardroom. The long empty table divides us.

I cross my arms. “How long did it take you to plan that entrance?”

“That’s the problem with you,” Charlie says, “you think everything has to be coordinated and premeditated. When the honest truth is: I was driving by your office. I wanted to talk to you. I stopped by. No, I didn’t wait for the board meeting to be over because who the fuck cares.”

“I care,” I snap. “And that’s the problem with you. You can’t account for anyone’s feelings but your own.”

“Why should I?” he combats. “You dominate the role of over-protective brother and cousin. I have no fucks to give because you’ve taken all of them.”

“Are you really sitting there and blaming me for your own lack of empathy?” I say, dumbfounded.

“I’m making an observation,” he says. “And second, I docare.It’s why I’m here. You just can’t fathom a scenario where someone else cares more about this family than you.” He rolls forward to the edge of the table. “The world believes you have no ego, but you’ve done a bang-up job of choking it down. I’m not even sure you know it’s in there.” He waves a finger towards my body, my stomach. “Slowly but surely engorging.”

I blow out a breath, clench my teeth. Agrowlscratches my throat, one that I won’t let out.

Fighting with him leads nowhere good. Growing up, we were in plenty of fistfights, usually with his twin brother and Janie physically separating us.

We’re caustic together. No matter how much we try for a better relationship, we always drive down the same road. Sometimes I think he just likes being on the opposite side of me.

I uncross my arms. “Just tell me why you’re here. If this is about Jane?—”

“It’s not. I respect my sister enough not to intervene in your friendship,” he says but has to add, “even if I think you can be a piece of shit.”