“Uh huh, I am the one that has to walk away fromhere with a rock-hard cock. Not you.”
“Serves you right,” Phillip said sleepily.“Gotta go?”
“Oh yeah. I'm getting dirty looks.” Ryanlaughed. “I'll talk to you soon.”
“Uh huh.”
Chapter Fifteen
25 Dec 2006
Ryan,
I've thought long and hard on what to get youfor Christmas. But since you're way the fuck over there and I'm waythe fuck over here I couldn't give you what I wanted. Instead I'mgiving you this.
I think about you all the time. You are thefirst thing on my mind when I wake up and the last thing I think ofwhen I sleep. Your name is a constant on my tongue. I wonder howyou are; what you’re doing; and even if you ate enough thatday.
You'd like that I know you that well becauseevery time we fuck I know exactly where, when and how hard to pushyou.
I know you, babe. I know what makes you tick.You love it when I masturbate. Especially when I let you watch. Youlove when I run my hand down your chest. Your nipples are sosensitive that a simple breath can make them hard as stones.
You love fucking my mouth. You seriously lovewhen I deepthroat you and then make those little noises that causemy throat to vibrate around you. I can hear your little whimpersand pleas, Ryan. It's the sexiest, fucking thing I have ever heardin my life.
But the thing that makes me realize how close toheaven I am is the way you respond when I'm buried balls deepinside of you. The last time we made love you tore my back toshreds. I loved it. Your mark was all over me. No one would ever beable to get that close to me. Ever.
Next time—when you’re home I'm going to takeyou, Ryan. I'm going to bend you over the couch and fuck you untilyou can't walk. This time I'm not going to use a condom either. Iwant a part of me inside of you that you can't wash off.
Then when we can barely stand we're going tostart over except this time you're going to be balls deep in ME. Iwant you to. I need you to. I don't have to tell you how muchpleasure you will get from this but know this. I'll be just ashappy. I'll have just as much pleasure from you being inside me asI get from being inside of you.
Now, to get this gift you have to stay sharp.Keep your head down. Don't be a hero unless you have to. All youhave to do is survive. I know you can.
Always,
Phil
***
26 Dec 2006
Guys,
MERRY CHRISTMAS! We are all eagerly awaitingyour arrival back home. Even though we know it isn't for a longtime yet. Katie says for Ryan to hurry up and get home because herdad really misses him and so does she. Ken is sitting here laughingat me for tearing up but I can't help it. I miss you all somuch.
Phil is doing pretty well, Ryan. Except hemisses you and PT has been kicking his ass. He swears he will bestanding and walking before you get home. He refuses to be in thewheelchair to greet you. I think he's more worried about no sex ifhe can't walk. But, that's just me.
Sandy
***
1 Jan 2007
Phillip,
You—God damn. You did it on purpose didn't you?I've been a walking hard-on since I read your email. I'll make ithome. There is no way I'm passing up an opportunity to fuck you.Not a chance.
I'm going to fuck you senseless. Fuck, I canalready feel it. I'm going to gobble you fucking down, Phil. I'mgoing to suck you off like I never have. You're my fuckingeverything. I want to taste you. I want you to taste yourself on mylips.
Then I'm going to finger you up good, and slidein as deeply as I can. I'm so fucking hot for you right now Icould—burst. September—just wait till September. I'm going to fuckyou until YOU walk funny.
