“Yeah,” she says, but her voice is really rough. She clears her throat, but doesn’t offer anything else.
“It’s called the sub space.” I lift up her foot and put it on my knee. I slowly dry off every inch. Even her toes are cute. I switch to the other foot. “We don’t need to talk about it at length right now, but it’s normal. You’re focusing on a lot of emotions and it’s going to make you feel a certain way. Just go with it and if you want to talk about it later, we definitely will.”
“Okay,” she says.
I dry between her thighs and wipe down her ass before I stand. “Where’s your lotion?” She turns and grabs the pump bottle of white cream off the counter. I want to take my time, but there’s a second part to this rub down and I would like to get her tied up properly before I start. I lotion her whole body, she helps me with her face. I watch her, the way her thick eyelashes almost touch her cheeks as she rubs her face. There are tears slicking her eyelids.
I gently sweep the moisture away with my thumb. I lean down and kiss her on the mouth. She kisses me back, just a firm press with her lips, but I think that’s all she can manage at the moment. She’s in that headspace for sure. There’s no need to try and take her out of it and either way I don’t think it would work. You can’t talk someone out of a deep emotional space.
I let her know we’re good to go and she reminds me she still needs to grab a hair tie out of the bedroom. We make our pitstop there and then I take her hand and lead her out to the great room and over to the dining table.
“Bend over,” I tell her. She leans over the table and I admire her pretty round ass as I grab the silicone butt plug and slick it up with lube. “Relax for me.” I watch carefully as I press the curved end into her tightest hole. She takes it like a pro, pushing back to give the proper room for me to slide it in. She exhales when it’s seated to the base, then stands and turns to face me even though I didn’t tell her to. I decide to let it slide.
“I’m going to gag you. Let me know if you don’t want me to.”
“No, it’s fine,” she says quietly. “I want to try it.”
“Good. Don’t try to swallow. You’re going to drool. Just let it happen.” She opens her mouth and holds still as I slip the rubber ball inside her lips. I secure the small buckle behind her head and then look her over to make sure it’s not biting into her skin.
“Good? Nod for me.” She nods and gives me a thumbs up. “Instead of hedgehog, if you want to stop just snap your fingers. If you forget to snap just shout ‘Stop’. I’ll be able to hear you.” She nods again, gives me another thumbs up. I go for the leather cuffs next and she lets me move her arms and feet where I need them so I can secure them around her wrists and ankles. She doesn’t say a word as I tie the rope around the metal attachment points of the cuffs.
“I’m going to hoist your hands above your head, but not so high that your feet won’t be comfortable on the floor. Nod if that’s okay.” She nods. I start pulling. When her arms are perfectly stretched above her head, I attach the rope to the mounted ring then walk back over to her side. “That good?” She nods and lets out a muffled “Yes.”
“Good. We’re going to begin now.” I step back and finally take a good look at her whole body. There's something about having a woman spread out for you, something about the sight of every inch of her on display. I pick up the flogger and step closer to Claudia. She glances at the leather tails for a second, then focuses back on my face.
I step behind her and get more of this perfect view. I move closer, press my hard on against the small of her back. I hear the rush of air that comes out of her nose. I wrap both my arms around her waist and twist my wrist just enough so the flogger sweeps back and forth across her stomach and her thighs.
“I'm going to use this on you tonight,” I say in her ear. “I'm going to use it mostly on your back and a little on your ass. Your tits are going to be spared. How does that sound to you?
She lets out a muffled “Good. Great.”
I reach down and tilt her head to the side. I take my sweet time running my tongue over the curve of her neck. She lets out this long, pitiful moan so I do it again. I bite and lick and suck at her, grinding my dick against her back until I can’t stand it anymore. I kiss her skin and release her. I walk back around to the front of her body.
She’s doing her best to hold still, but I can see the little tremors rippling all over her body. I step close again and tell her to look at me. Drool is already running down her chin. I want to hate how badly it turns me on. It’s only been a few minutes and she’s already giving in. She’s already losing control. There’s only one more thing I need.
“Do you like this?”
She nods.
“I thought so. You look like you like it a lot. I like it too. It feels like you’re finally mine. Do you have any idea how good it feels to know that you’re mine? Even for just one night or one week. You’re mine. Do you want to be mine?”
She nods frantically and lets out another muffled “Yes.”
“That’s exactly what I want to hear.” I lean down and kiss both her cheeks. “This isn’t about pain. We’re just gonna get you nice and warm. Nice and loose. Just relax and let me take care of you.” There’s no response, she just searches my eyes. I keep the words that are bouncing around in my head to myself. It’s time.
I move behind her and take a few deep breaths and then I swing. The tails connect with the smooth skin of her upper back. She jerks a bit and makes a little noise. I wait a beat and strike her again, on the other side of her upper back. Another jerk and a moan, but she settles just as quickly. I strike again, a little lower and again on the other side. I work in a circular motion, again picking up speed but barely increasing intensity. I watch closely, listen carefully for every sound she makes. The little moans and squeaks. All of it rolls over my own skin. All of it permeates my senses. She’s perfect.
I stop momentarily and walk around to check on her. There are tears running down her face. I don’t ask her any questions. I don’t want to make her think. I just wipe her cheeks with my thumbs and kiss her skin.
“You’re doing very well, baby. I’m very pleased.” She squeezes her eyes shut and more tears leak out. I kiss her again and step back around her body. I smooth my hand over her upper back. Her skin is warm, but nowhere near welting. We can go a while longer. I step back and roll my shoulder. I stretch my neck again. I’ve been lying to myself about how badly I need this. I haven’t been honest with myself when it comes to how often I need this. This is months in the making, maybe years.
We’ve only been at it no more than ten minutes and I know it’s never been this way before. Never with Meegan or any of the others before her. It’s never been this way with Sarah. That’s for fuck sure. It’s her. I know it. It’s Claudia. Everything about her and everything she’s given me up to this moment. Her smartass mouth and how quick she is to turn that shit on its head to offer me her enthusiastic submission. I believe her when she tells me she wants this. Even if it’s just tonight, she is mine. I need to be inside her soon.
Another deep breath and my flogger connects with her ass. The stroke is harder than the ones that kissed her back. I almost groan at the way her ass cheek bounces. A flash of red colors that gorgeous brown skin. I give the other side of her ass the same treatment. Another flash of red and then another. She yelps louder this time. I know the sting is more intense, but she is handling it so well. I swing again and again. I set a rhythm, a pace, and soon she starts to wiggle her ass in toward my flogger, trying to anticipate each blow. She's begging for it. I find that sweet spot where my arm is perfectly warm and the sweat is starting to build on my own back.
I feel that control I've been looking for, the momentum. No need to swing any harder—just faster, in perfect time with the pounding of my heart. I do move faster and she can't follow the swings. Too fast for her to move any direction to chase whatever sensation she thinks I'm denying her. We both know that's a lie. I'm giving her everything. I'm giving it all to her and there's more. She knows. It's just her mind can't keep up. Fighting what's already happening to her body. Those endorphins are hitting their tipping point and any moment now she's going to come.
And then it starts to happen. Her legs start to shake. I don't stop. She lets out one long, consistent moan. I step behind her and wrap my arm around her body. I shove my fingers between her legs. Her head jerks to the side as she cries out. She so wet, so fucking wet and her clit is swollen hard, just begging. I ignore it and shove three fingers inside her tight cunt. It's so fucking slick, I slide right in. I'm not gentle. I shake my fingers hard and that long moan pitches even higher. She almost head butts me in the chin as she shoots up to her tiptoes.
