He smiles. "I think everything means something, Nyx. It's just a matter of figuring out the what."
Nodding, I return back to my reading, desperate to uncover more information.
The last few entries of this journal go into further detail about her mates fighting and butting heads, and I can't help but feel amused at the similarities. She did tell me it gets easier, so it's nice to know I'm not alone in this minefield of fated bonds.
Grabbing the next journal in the sequence, I notice that it's riddled with pages about the Great War.
10th July 1610
I hath returned from my travels. The alphas hath been welcoming, and many signed the treaty.
I fear it is not enough though. Unreachable packs are still at war, and with the cosmic balance swinging, it's worrisome that the end is near.
Now, it shall take a great sacrifice to restore peace. The ultimate sacrifice of good is the only way to return the wolves to amicable survival.
Why do I fear I am the answer?
The sun has long set by the time we decide to call it a night.
Cade leads me upstairs, our hands joined as I muffle a yawn.
I'm still mid yawn when Cade slams the bedroom door closed, shoving me into the wood. His mouth covers mine urgently, the lingering taste of coffee still present on his tongue.
The exhaustion is gone in an instant, my lips attacking his viciously as his hands tug at my clothes.
"I need to be inside you," Cade mutters against my mouth. "Now."
I let out a squeal as he throws my clothes to the side and lifts me off the ground. My legs wrap around his waist as he walks us over to the bed and we crash into the mattress.
Slipping my hands between us, I help him remove his clothes. Cade slides down my body, his hand grabbing my ankle and throwing my leg over his shoulder.
His hot mouth covers my cunt, tongue darting through my folds.
"Fuck," I breathe out, wiggling under his touch as the tip of his tongue circles my clit with growing speed.
I tighten my grip, my leg placing him in a head lock as my pelvis rocks against his face. Cade's finger slides into my entrance, pumping in strong strokes as his mouth aggressively strikes my clit.
"I'm going to come," I tell him breathlessly, squeezing his head tighter. "Yes, right there. Fuck!"
My body explodes into a frenzy of waves, his unrelenting tongue lapping at my clit. As I start to come down from the high, Cade quickly slides back up my body and impales me with his cock, stretching me instantly.
He growls in my ear at the sensation, my pussy convulsing still as I spasm around him. Burying his face into the crook of my neck for a moment, he bites the sensitive flesh, piercing the skin.
A scream erupts from my throat but it's cut off quickly as Cade kisses me. I moan into his mouth as I taste myself, his hips rocking into mine as his cock hits all the right places.
I grab his face and deepen the kiss, our tongues dancing against each other. Cade reaches down, finding my clit with his fingers and strokes it vigorously in firm circles without breaking pace.
I'm already climbing back up again, ready to fall over the edge at any moment. I don't want it to end, but we're both so worked up, desperate for each other. Cade thrusts into me harder, hitting my g-spot, and I crash hard—screaming into his mouth as I clench his cock tightly with my orgasm.
Cade's not far behind, a low growl ripping from his throat before he stills, spurting his release into me while his kiss deepens and his tongue slides against mine.
"I love you," I blurt out, pulling back slowly. "So damn much, Cade. I'm sorry I didn't say it sooner."
Panting softly, his eyes dance as he gives me a tilted smile. "I loved you from the very first moment you told me to fuck off inthe cells. I knew right then and there that you were my mate, and I was fascinated by you from that moment on."
I laugh, rolling over and cuddling into his chest when he lies next to me. "I still don't forgive you for the whole rock thing."
He sighs in dramatic fashion. "Ezra said he was sorry. Besides, I think it worked out pretty well. The rock was an important part of our journey. You should give it more credit."
