This time he had no choice but to bury his silent laughter against her shoulder. When he could trust himself to speak, he said, “Don’t despair, sapphire eyes. I hope”—a long, uncontrollable shiver of passion passed through him—“presently to be able to make things better for you.”
“Hope?”
Irresistible laughter swallowed him again. “I only have instinct, dear one. I’ve never been anyone’s first lover before.” As soon as the words were out, he could hardly believe he’d said them. The appalling reference to experiences past, and at such a moment—the utter confusion of his bliss was the only thing he could think of to account for such tactlessness; but studying her in dismayed concern, he discovered that his words seemed to have pleased her.
The dazzling color of her cheeks enclosed a lopsided smile that was just sardonic enough to fascinate him. Pushing her soft nose into the nerve center of his palm, stroking him with her open lips, she said softly, “Instinct?”
His fingers stroked her nose and lips while with his free hand he resettled her body beneath him, keeping himself deeply in her. Bringing her mouth to meet his, letting his hand drift to her throat and lower, he whispered, “Love, together we can find where the clouds are born.”
Chapter 26
One of the kittens had come during the night, waking Devon when it climbed his hair with struggling clawholds, padding across his shoulder to his chest. He lifted his hand absently to stroke its plump, furry body, and the kitten turned once, in a circle, batting his cheek with its tail, and then settled in a lump under his chin. In the absolute silence its purr seemed loud. Below, with her head nested in the hollow below his shoulder, Merry slept on.
She had fallen asleep soon after their lovemaking, while their bodies were still tangled together like bright ribbands on May Day, and he was murmuring love words to her, trying to find some way to tell her that she had entered his soul like sunlight.
The soft-dying day had crept under the thatch eaves to glaze the shadows in thin jewellike colors. Swallows twittered in the skies overhead, and hedge crickets bantered withthe dusk; and as he had drawn his young wife’s sleeping body under the folds of the quilt he had wondered why men asked more of life than this. Gazing down into the helpless oblivion on her face, he had seen her again as she had been at the crest of her rapture. The fierce sweetness of it had possessed him so totally that he couldn’t remember when or even whether he had reached his own fulfillment. He savored the jubilant emotions for a long time before he slept.
Now it was too black to see anything, but Devon could feel the kitten stand, stretch, resettle. And attuned as he was to her faintest movement, he knew the second Merry woke. He could even feel her moment’s bewilderment as she found she was pressed intimately to a man’s body. Then she tensed, and he felt her breath, drawn quickly in shock, as it flooded against his nipple. Before she could start to withdraw from him, he said softly, “We have a visitor.”
His fingers followed the line of her arm until he reached her hand, and carried it to the kitten. He could feel her expression change against his skin—perhaps to surprise—and the contraction of her arm muscles against his chest as she began to stroke the kitten. Her fragrant hair tickled his face as he strayed slow kisses there and caressed the lovesome geography of her, the flat, solid muscles in her back, the flesh of her nape under its warming hair-cover.
“Do I seem different to you now?” she asked in a hushed voice.
His wrist arched comfortably over her ear; the side of his thumb rode the potent softness of her cheekbone. “No. I seem different to myself.”
“How?”
“Wiser. And younger. Nearer to myself…” He put a finger on the tip of her nose and wiggled it gently. “I meant all the words I said to you, Merry.”
“I didn’t.” Sudden tears scratched her voice. “I’m sorryabout what I said—you know,during—about not liking things. It turned out not to be true.”
In the quiet he could hear her swallow the pooling moisture in her throat. Finding the underside of her chin with one finger, he tilted her face upward toward his. In this total absence of light he could see nothing more than the faint shine of her eyes, but their exhalations swirled together like cloudscapes under a sable moon. “Do you know what, Windflower? It’s appalling that women are made so their first love is painful. Whose idea was that, do you think?” Her watery chuckle quavered against his chest. “If it had been up to me, things would be much different.”
Comforted, she snuggled against him, her fawn-soft breasts moving in an unknowing massage on the high shallows of his rib cage. She seemed content to lie in the peace of his arms, lulled toward sleep by the knowledgeable persuasion of his loving hands. A minute passed. Her voice came to him, a low melody.
“Could it be true? Were Morgan and my mother—” She broke off, as though the relationship defied description.
“I don’t know. I haven’t started thinking about it yet. I think it’s something I’ll have to prepare myself for by three days of fasting and meditation. Did you have any inkling?”
“I’m not sure.” The kitten yawned, a tiny sigh. “On the night the British officers came to St. Elise, Morgan made me come with him to the beach. Heknewthat I had drawn those pictures before he saw them, and afterward I thought,How did he know?Is he clairvoyant?”
“Morgan is many things, but a clairvoyant is definitely not among them.” Devon stretched his hand backward above his head to free a reed from the matted hay. He put it between his teeth, tasting the sharp wild grass flavor on his tongue. “Could your servant—”
“Henry Cork?”
“Yes. Henry Cork. Could he have heard you talking with your brother about the drawings and somehow passed that information to Morgan?”
“It’s possible. He often hid in strange places, but we thought that was to keep Aunt April from putting him to his chores.” Her sleepy voice intoned the words slowly, as though she found the whole thing a hopeless bewilderment. “If Morgan knew from the beginning, why didn’t he tell you?”
“I wouldn’t have kept you then.” Folding her into the warmth of his body, he felt a thrill of protective fear for her pass like metal fibers through his nerves. “God help us both, love, but I’m afraid those months of turmoil were my half brother’s notion of matchmaking.”
Cat could have thought of another name for it. Alone in Lord Cathcart’s library, waiting, waiting… He had conducted several useless cursory examinations of the room; but there had been nothing to distract him except perhaps the book on probate law that lay open on Cathcart’s desk. Except for the book the room was bleakly tidy. Even the marble bust of Homer had not so much as a dust mote on its eyelids.
Plucking an abridged history of Rome from the shelf, he had carried the calfskin volume with him to the couch. The Roman Empire. It was, in a convoluted way, his favorite period of history. One couldn’t find a more acute allegory of human civilization than the Roman coliseum, wherein the selfish, complacent multitudes gazed from their smug tiers at the sad struggles below. Rand Morgan would have done very well in Rome.
Three days ago in Falmouth Cat had watched the traveling carriage bear Merry off, and then he had gone directly back to theJoke,where Morgan was poring over a sheet of figures, a candle assisting the pale dayshine. He was a strikingfigure, his ruffled shirt opened over the iron chest muscles, his hair darkly glossy, the color of apple seeds. Smiling, he had looked up at Cat, his eyes black mocking embers.
“So—did she weep down your shirt buttons?”
