She felt the twitch of his cheek as his mouth curved into a grin. “Not such execrable taste in literature after all. Not that I’ve ever particularly liked that play.”
Like the graceful turn of a dancer’s wrist that alters subtly the sense of a ballet, the pirate’s kiss changed. What had been demanding became comforting, light touching rather than brutal tracing. A different woman might have read pity there, but for one moment, for the flash of a falcon’s wingbeat, Merry’s spirit, with its undiscovered complexities, fused, frightened and resistingly, with his. They were, ever so briefly, two intuitive people swept together in a desire that chagrined the one and shamed the other. Kissing her, he mused that really he ought to be better organized about this; a woman who memorizes Shakespeare shouldn’t be taken against a table like a field whore in Spain. Merry caught the rough shadow of his thought and read there, though more innocently, his amusement, and his admiration, and his intention.
There was no point in trying to pray, no point in trying to struggle, because by now the mind-trails to her muscles had ceased to obey her will. All that was left for her was to lie, inert under the beguiling caress of his mouth and the warm floating movements of his skilled hands over her body. Her lips were parted, the tip of her breast was hard and aching under his curving fingers, and she felt so idiotic that it seemed instead of kissing her he ought to be boxing her ears.
The ship moved beneath them like a great groaning elephant. Lantern light sprayed through the room, transforming every color Merry saw into a shimmering scale ofgreen or yellow. Suns with black burning centers and sharp yellow runners littered her vision. Earlier today there had been another dark sun, and a reedy voice that said, “I crave the wench,” and Merry drug-dreamed Jack in her mind and smelled his dirty whiskers and saw the greasy string of spit on his chin and knew that she was going to be sick.
“Devon,” she said. And she had repeated it twice before he said, “Yes, love?”
“Devon, please help me. I—I—”
“What?”
Need suffocated the embarrassment attendant on what was about to happen. “I’m sick,” she managed. “I really am.”
She was the only woman who had ever lain in his arms and told him such a thing. He said in a reassuringly sensible voice, “What kind of sick?”
“Goingto be sick,” said Merry, groaning like the ship.
Devon lifted his head and saw that it was true.
“That’s what you get,” he observed under his breath with an expression that she couldn’t understand, “when you force yourself on a seasick woman splattered with bhang and bruises.”
She protested as he made to move her, but he lifted her in spite of it and advised her tartly that whatever she might enjoy doing flat on her back, egesting the contents of her stomach couldn’t be one of them. And he did the civilized things that he could for her with simple decency; when he saw it was too late, he brought the washbowl and gave her the support of his arms, having an errant memory of doing the same for his cousin Steven at his… what? sixth birthday? fifth? That her young body should remind him of his smallest cousin was an uncomfortable thought; he retained it, using it to force moderation on the high pump of his pulse, which was slow in recognizing the change in circumstances.
Her stomach didn’t seem to realize it was useless; thedrug had entered through her lungs and would not be thrown off with a simple purge; and as she lay exhausted in his arms, on the bed, she felt once his lips touch the back of her neck and heard him say, with a murmur of laughter, “I hope, my love, that you realize this is an incalculable blow to my self-esteem.”
She fell asleep with his patient fingers stroking her cheek. God, who had a much better sense of humor than she had ever before suspected, had heard her prayers with a grin.
Chapter 9
Green waves washed over Merry, in every shade from bile to Nile. She breathed saltwater, and foam burned the lining of her nose. Above she saw a matte black sky and the glimmering phosphorescence in the cresting waves as they caved in upon her. The wind was a lamprey shrieking her name through a hundred teeth and snarling her hair, and as she tried to kick and swim seaweed tangled her legs, scratchy and slimy like the long fingers of salt goblins. Try as she might to keep herself up, there was something pushing her down, pushing her under, a pressure on her shoulders that would not cease, and she began to scream, and the sound was lost in the gulping surf as bubbling water slowly replaced air in her lungs.…
Merry burst from the dream into a still room, throbbing from the echo of her cry. Sweat rolled in silver pellets fromher pores, blankets entwined her legs thigh to ankle, but, thank heaven, she was in a bed and not drowning. Using a corner of the bed sheet to mop the hot tears from her eyelashes, she began a rattling sigh of relief that died as she saw where she was and remembered. Her eyes picked out like old enemies the table bound by lanyards and set neatly with three chairs; the unfaded place on the walnut paneling that had held the crossbow; the inset desk; the two sea chests bound in leather and lashed to eye-pins beneath a wall of drawers carved with Poseidon figures riding the peaks of wooden waves. While she slept someone had dug out and discarded the arrow and the crossbow, removed the washbowl, taken away the damp cloths Devon had used to wipe her face, and then had left her discreetly and tidily alone.
Merry Patricia Wilding sat up and said, right out loud to the wrinkled bedclothes that covered her knees, “Good morning to you, parts of my body. Miss Wilding is in a real pickle. Stick with me! We’re in this together.”
It was much worse today than yesterday. Yesterday everything was muted by exhaustion, terror, pain, concussion, and finally drugs. This morning she discovered she was unhappily recovered from the worst of that, and there was nothing to stand between her and a grim-visaged future. Yesterday had been terrible beyond conception; today would probably be worse. No one ever has a good time on a pirate ship; no one except the pirates.
There was time now to worry about poor Aunt April, who would be horrified by Merry’s disappearance, and time to wonder, tearful and headachy, if she would ever see Aunt April again. Or her father, Carl, her cousins. What would they think? That she had been abducted by some terrible and mysterious agent? Would they search for her, frantic in their worry? It would hardly comfort them to learn the truth.
Merry climbed from the bed, disoriented by the sea thatthrew the floor up toward her face, and walked to the cupboard where she had seen Devon find the washbowl. Yes, it was there, spotless and cheerful in thick white ceramic, paired with a brass can of water. She stuck her hand in the water; room temperature. She splashed it into the washbowl, then onto her face, and it ran down her cheeks and trailed down her throat. There was no towel. Pirates, probably, liked to air dry.
Below was a clean chamber pot, furred with dust; a tiny spider was sitting in a buoyant web stretched across the top. What pirates did about their natural functions didn’t bear conjecture. Devon, no doubt, didn’t have any. Why should he? In every other department he seemed to have been blessed with irritating superiority. She, on the other hand…
Merry had never used a chamber pot. Never. Not in deepest winter. Not in the middle of the night. Not if she had a head cold. It had been the outside privy, or it had been nothing at all. Chamber pots were too revolting.
She was still sitting on the floor, glaring balefully at the chamber pot, when Cat came into the room, with a copper earring and one fat, neat braid down his chest to his trousers. He carried a glass, had a cloth that was green and pretty slung on one arm, and over his shoulder was a rope. Visions of new and more degrading tortures flooding into her mind, Merry jumped to her knees, swung the washbowl into the air and sent it flying at his head. Her shaking aim was not true, but it came very close.
Accustomed to the lethal shrapnel of sea battles, Cat didn’t flinch under the hail of dripping splinters. Merely he fixed her with an unswerving stare as he picked a sharp white shard from his braid.
“Charming,” he said, “as the increase of a pearl-bellied anole.”
“Which are?” she snapped.
“Lizards. Was I supposed to put a white flag through the door first or—Oh. The rope. Is it the rope? It’s not for you. It’s one of the ratlines from the mizzen. Needs a splice. See?” He opened the door and threw the rope into the corridor. Pushing shut the door with the heel of one hand, he joined her on the floor and put the glass into her hand.
“You look like you have a headache,” he said. “Drink this.”
