Pouring more lube over his fingers, his brows furrowed as he concentrated on spreading my ass cheeks. A small gasp left me when his cold fingers ran the length of my crack before he pressed against my tight hole.
“This okay?”he asked, meeting my gaze.
“Uh-huh.”
A smirk pulled his lips up one side as he pressed his finger in deeper, and my fingernails dug into the bedsheets. Soft moans escaped my mouth as Jackson began moving his finger in and out, spreading the lube in my tight hole before he inserted a second one.
Pain seared me, growing worse when Jackson scissored his fingers inside me, but I didn’t want him to stop. I wanted him to have this. He continued to movehis fingers, his gaze occasionally flicking up to mine, checkingthatI wanted him to carry on.
“Jackson, please,”I moaned.“I can’t wait any longer. I need you.”
“My beautiful girl needs my cock, huh?”He thrust both fingers in and out several times before pulling them free. Grabbing my thighs, he positioned himself sothatmy legs wrapped around his waist, and his cock pressed against my back hole.“You ready, Kiki?”
I bobbed my head, excitement tinged with panic racing through me. He pressed his hips forward, forcing the tip of his cock into me. My body tensed as burning pain slivered along the length of my spine.
“Relax, baby,” Jackson cooed. “Let me in.”
I panted, squeezing my eyes closed and willing my body to unclench. Inhaling deep breaths, Jackson waited patiently until I nodded, giving him the go-ahead to push forward.
Inch by inch, he pushed through tight muscle. My jaw ached from how hard I was clenching, and more than once, I almost screamed at him to stop.
“Fuck, Kiki,”Jackson hissed through his teeth.“I’m all the way in.”
He lowered himself down before placing light kisses along my jawline. I peeled my eyes open. The lower half of my body was on fire, and all I could focus on was how full it felt to have him inthathole.
“I…I think you can move,”I whispered, hoping I could manage the pain.
Holding himself up with strong arms, he slid his cock free before pressing back in. I released a moan, the pain still burning through me, but as he repeated his movements several times, my body began to relax.
Thrusting slowly, pleasure mixed with the pain. I didn’t think I would be able to come like this, but it didn’t matter. The feeling of Jackson being inside me, where no one else had been before, filled me with a euphoria I never thought I’d experience.
“Kiki, I can’t hold on much longer,”Jackson rumbled, reaching up to cup my head.
“Don’tthen. Don’t hold on any longer.”
As if he’d been waiting for permission, he thrust inside once more, groaning as warm liquid filled my ass. His body jerked, releasing every drop he’d been holding on to, before his arms collapsed and he fell on top of me.
I held him closer, his head nuzzling into the crook of my neck as his heart pounded against mine. I closed my eyes as another tear of happiness slid down my cheek.
I cleaned myself up in the ensuite while Jackson changed the bedding. For whatseemedlike hours, we lay on the bed, wrapped in each other’s arms, not speaking, butjustenjoying the comfort the other had to offer.
It had been a whirlwind of a day, and my emotions were scattered. Still, I couldn’t help the smile plastered to my face. Jackson wanted to be with me. He wanted to take care of Billie.
We were going to be together.
A sliver of doubt worked its way through me, though. What if he’d only said it in the heat of the moment? Before I could stop myself, I bolted upright.“Did you mean what you said?Thatyou wanted to take care of Billie and me.”
A frown creased his brow, and his eyes lowered to his lap.Thatwas all I needed to see to know his answer. A lump formed in my throat, making it hard to swallow.
“I want to,”Jackson finally said, his gaze lifting to meet mine, sorrow shining in his eyes.
“But?”
He sighed.“I don’t know if I can trust you.”
My shoulders slumped. It was always going to come back to this. But I wasn’t willing to give upthateasily. I’d gone without Jackson for too long, and I didn’t want to go another day without him.“Jackson. I’ll never do anything to hurt you. It might take time, but I will provethatyou can trust me.”
A sad smile pulled across his mouth.“You said once beforethatyou’d never do anything to hurt me.”
